now i guess seems that i cant ever post anything negative on this blog. total influx of comments from people. okay, thanks for the sentiments.

ive always preferred to handle my matters alone, i dont see any reason that this time should be any different.


ps: im keeping the song cos its nice.

if only i ... ... then maybe you'd ... ...

ahh. its never gonna happen. everytime i think ive forgotten, it comes back to haunt me when i least expect it.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!! *&!&#&$)(#*(*#$^*&(!(*#&$(*!(*&#$(*^#(*$&^(*!#^$(*#&$^&(!*#&

SOME @#&#(*$&#(*$&#(*$&!(&$#!(*$&#( IDIOT STOLE MY HANDPHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1





okay, im more under control, but i still dont know how it happened, and im still freaking pissed. hmm. so ive cancelled my existing simcard, and along with it goes ALL my contacts cos in case you havent been reading the top, MY PHONE IS GONE TOO!!!!!!!!!!

so i guess what im saying is that if you want me to keep in contact with you, please pm me on msn and tell me your hp number and stuff like that. errr. i'll be going to the singtel hello shop to get the new card tmr after school i think, so tell me your numbers from tmr night onwards.

shit laa..... more than 6years of friend's/teacher's contacts just poofed like that. man im pissed. its as much my fault as the asshole who stole it. DAMN.

and im so thankful to my dad who gave his backup phone to me to use. ps: when i say backup phone, its actually one of those motorolla v3 series, newer than the original v3, but... eeyer. i think id still prefer my nokia... bye poor phone, sorry.

omg. either im getting old- and my memory is failing, or my brain has finally fried. i cant even remember what i did yesterday!

school is getting monotonous, dreary, one big mess. umm. not that school is a mess, just my memories. everyday seems the same to me already.
even now, thinking back on the day, all i really remember is:
lesson-lesson-lesson-break(which means do maths tys)-lesson-recess-lesson-lesson-lunch-extra lesson

just count the lessons. haha. and i think there were 2disjointed physics and maths lessons today. how odd. the timetable is seriously confusing. if i remember correctly, it was:
english
maths
physics
break
english
recess
maths
physics extra lesson.

HAHA. okay. there's more than 1 english too. and 3 physics. urgh. my mind's a blur.
















OKAY. regarding the JC issue, i think ive made my mind up: SAJC's the one. umm. thanks to albert and senior eugene for that. although i still kinda want to go to either vjc or tjc, i realise that their wayyyy to out of the way and far from home. too much time wasted on travelling to and fro each day. besides, sajc has canoeing too, so can just join! woohoo. of course the aim's still to do as well as possible for preim3 and the Os, but now theres a fixed target, get 7/8 for prelim3 and appy for sa, haha. then Os can -4 with loyalty.

IM LOYAL. hahaha. loyalty points, sounds like something from a gang.







okay, just to break the monotone of school ramblings, lets watch iggy being tortured and forced to admit that he's fatter than weesiong. (not possible at all)

hahaha. sorry if the sound came out a little odd, i cant seem to make it clearer:

lesson 1.
sleeping at 2, then waking up at 530 to go for a run isnt exactly the best idea. haha. sounds dumb but yeah. i studied till 12 last night, then succumbed to temptation and read harry potter till 2. haha. imagine my shock when i glanced at the clock and realised that i only had 3 hours to sleep before running the longest run ive ran in weeks. well, i bet my expression looked something like: O - O

lesson 2.
drinking a HOT cup of milo, on a COLD morning, then going for a run. another horrible idea. makes your stomach feel wierd. kinda like a natural laxative if you get what i mean. haha. and the worst thing was that all the toilets in tp were totally crowded. i had to endure the horrible pain and go for the run, was so afraid id have an accident. hahaha. oh but the feeling went away as i was running. oooh- mysterious. heh.


in case people are wondering what run im talking about. its the MIZUNO WAVE run. haha. yes. super duper cool. so cool that 'certain' people would call it 'kewlzx'. haha. okay. i signed up together with kevin, gabriel, eugene and edwin. oh and we met the sec3 OAL benjamin there too. yeah, the one who was in my group for OAL training camp.

me.kevin.edwin.eugene.gabriel
say: stupid
say:blur
say:dumb
then again, we can always blame the organisers for not planning the event well enough. we signed up for the fun run, which is basically a 5km run around bedok reservoir. not that bad. well, we all kinda got seperated during the course of the run, and reached the ending point at different times. at the supposed ending point, there was this path which was supposed to be for the 10km runners. the road marshall standing there pointed for ALL of us to run down that path. i dont know about the rest of them, but i only noticed that something was wrong when i ran past tp for a second time, which wasnt supposed to happen. haha. so it turns out that we all got tricked by that road marshall and ran 10km. okay, wasnt that bad. im guessing that i'll just keep training, probably take part in a few more of these runs when i have the time.

edwin's dad was kind enough to treat us to breakfast after that at the nearby hawker centre. even gave stinky-ole-us there and back to junction8.

reached home at roughly 1130. oh you never know how good a warm bath feels until you have one after a run. its so refreshing. i didnt even feel this good after not bathing for 4days in malaysia while having sec3 camp. haha. oops, now no one will come close to me during camps. i rarely bath.

met felicia at serangoon mrt after her tuition ended. passed her the present. yeah, the 2part present. haha. good that you like it. i wasnt sure that you liked such things. good good then. it suits you, the octopus being pink and all. haha. yes yes. study hard, you'll break your school's record and go to a good jc. sa alright? see you there.

afterwords, went to the minimart to buy stuff. ive got a 6pack!!!! of redbull of course. i used to think that redbull was very expensive, and i dont know why the minimart is selling a 6pack of redbull at $4.80. perhaps its some parallel import that will give me some wierd disease after i drink it. hmm. the words on it seem to be thai, or some other scribbly language. yay. i have my study drink to keep me awake and energised. honestly- the only reason i didnt nap this afternoon was thanks to the can of redbull on my table.

hurrah for me.

okay. continue! .... with what?

hmmm.

hmmm

hmmm.

okay. i'll do the typical. what i always do.

I can't imagine any greater fear

Than waking up without you here

And though the sun would still shine on

My whole world would all be gone

But not for long

If I had to run

If I had to crawl

If I had to swim a hundred rivers

Just to climb a thousand walls

Always know that I would find a way

To get to where you are

There's no place that far

It wouldn't matter why we're apart

Lonely months, two stubborn hearts

Nothing short of God above

Could turn me away from your love

I need you that much

If I had to run

If I had to crawl

If I had to swim a hundred rivers

Just to climb a thousand walls

Always know that I would find a way

To get to where you are

There's no place that far

haha. seriously. im just love slapping these song lyrics here. dont ask why, i dont know too. they sound meaningful, i like them, i post them. its that simple. umm yeah.

ohyeah- ive gotten my edition of the harry potter book. hmm. i really should be doing work but its sitting on my bed mocking me:

hp book: oooooh. come read me. READ me. yoohoo! you know you want to.

me: -_-" you're not supposed to be able to talk.

yeah. im going nuts. or perhaps i always was. i guess the medicine does its job most of the time to make me appear sane.

by the way, have i ever mentioned that i might just be killed in the middle of the night-in my sleep, while im in my room? theres this hugely hugely huge tree growing behind my house. its towering above my bedroom window, and my room is on the third bloody floor! darn, im quite concerned that its gonna get struck by lightning during some storm and collapse on my house. id be sooooo dead, even before i can say: MOUSEDEERS ARE CUTE! wahaha.

these pics are taken from the third floor, my window, its still so bloody tall! like another 2 stories up! now now, lets get some people here to chop it down. haha. or at least make it shorter. ive even seen a bee's hive somewhere amongst the branches. i mean, if the bees sting the owners, or if it collapses on the owners house, i wouldnt really care- but dont implicate me! wahahaha. evill...

personal appearance. now thats a nice topic. PERSONAL. yeah, so it shouldnt be anyone else's business actually, but sometimes it affects others. haha. and that aint nice. okay, fats. sensitive topic. this is my opinion: if you're fat, admit it. and please please please dont wear body hugging shirts/ clothes or miniskirts/tight shorts. soo hurtful to the eyes. i saw these two ?ladies? wearing miniskirts on the way home from tuition. lets just say i initially wanted to take a picture to display the effects of miniskirts on fats, but then was worried that my phone would overload or something. so scary. haha. dont get me wrong, i dont discriminate fats, hell- IM FAT. i have fats all over, i think my stomachs covered in fat, as well as many other parts. BUT, at least be aware of how you look and dress accordingly. (hahaha, now everyone's gonna know why my clothes usually are quite loose. never tight. =D)

okay...

today

was

looong

albert MADE me wake at 7 just to meet him at serangoon gardens for breakfast, following which we visited the gym at serangoon cc. well its not as big nor well furnished as 'club fit' at bishan, but its much more peaceful, barely anyone around. not super-duper-uber-ultra fit guys there to demoralise me. then again, no motivation to become like them. win-lose situation. err. for $15 a month? perhaps in the hols, then i'll visit more.

bused down to bishan. bussssssssed. haha. sounding like a snake. chs. went to collect my chem tys that i happily forgot to get from russell yesterday. i think id forget my ass if it werent attached too tightly to remove. hahaha.

walked over to meet aaron at j8, who wanted to buy present for the birthday girl. (you must be happy, bet ya received lots of presents) apparently, someone forgot to tell him that the shop doesnt open so early. 11? umm. although i was soaked from the rain, did some work in the library, yeah- like only one summary. saw jowell lean there. HEH. with someone else. didnt see who though. haha. he was so embarrassed, red as a tomato. and evil aaron kept messaging him to tease. poor thing.

hmmm. im getting bored with myself. meaning that anyone reading should be getting bored too. okay- lightspeed recount. ready? set? here we go:

left library

aaron bought present

i dallied to admire the cute mechanical plant sold at action city. cuteee.

albert/aaron lunched at food juntion

beat edwin at arm-wrestling. WEAK! hahahaha.

almost tied with eugene. yongsheng poked me! i demand a rematch.

crapped with wilson. he thinks he's turning from ugly to chio. haha.

busssssed back to serangoon.

did amaths at the soyabean shop. love the place.

tuition till 6.

work work work.

okay. now THIS cannot be sped through. cos its about.... food. yeah, gotta take time to enjoy the simple pleasures in life. yoshinoya! yummy. spicy beef bowl? its good. really good. really really good. spicy. miso soup? not bad, nice in small portions. thinking back, i really should have taken a picture of the food, but then again, i was sooooo hungry. skipped lunch remember? and to think that the last time i ate yoshinoya was... yeah. my birthday... ... ...

If i die tonight,
I'd go with no regrets,
If it's in your arms,
I know that i was blessed,
And if your eyes,
are the last thing that i see,
Then i know the beauty heaven holds for me,

But if i make it through,
If i live to see the day,
If i'm with you,
I'll know just what to say,
the truth be told,
Girl, you take my breath away,
every minute, every hour, every day,

Cause every moment,
we share together,
is even better,
than the moment before,
If every day was,
as good as today was,
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes,

A moment in time,
is all that's given you and me,
A moment in time,
and it's something you should seize,
So i won't make,(i won't make)
the mistake of letting go,
Everyday you're here,
i'm gonna let you know,

That every moment,
we share together,
is even better,
than the moment before,
If every day was,
as good as today was,
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes,

Each morning that i get up, (each morning i'll wait),
I love you more than ever,(i love you more)
So girl i'll never, go away, never stray,

So every moment,
we share together,
is even better,
than the moment before,
If every day was,
as good as today was,
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes,


21st july. hmm. ohyeah. happy birthday to felicia tan. seeee. i didnt forget. since i cant pass you the present today.. perhaps tommorow ba.

yay. harry potters out. stupid poon was flaunting his book in front of me earlier today. SHOWING OFF. nvm, i'll be getting mine later tonight. hope that popular isnt closed by that time. okay. darn. busy now. continue later.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby,
I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so hollow.



darn. dont you just hate the feeling when you see something wrong happening around you and you just cant do anything? zhishen ah zhishen. i dont know if you're reading this, but your problem is seriously troublesome. honestly bro- dont be an asshole. at least give her some direct answer and not do it like this. damn cruel.


on another note... the dreaded countdown is really making itself much more obvious now.
-5-6 weeks to prelim3. THE prelim. the MUST SCORE prelim. yeah, its gonna help if i wanna go to vjc or something next year. 6points the target. lets go.
-prelims one week, break one week. prelims another week. huuuuh. so odd la. theres a week break in between. hardcore mugging time.
-after that, 3 more weeks to Olevels. its THE ONE. yeah. or rather. the One. horrible. scary too. really dislike the feeling of not knowing whats coming up next. where do i go after chs?


the morning lessons are beginning again. lessons will be officially starting at 7. woohoo... -_-". okay. used to hate it so much. now- im really thankful too all the teachers that are putting in so much effort just to help us. not like its their Olevels. hahaha. THANKS.


to all readers from chs: lets agree on something- stay low on 'teacher radar'. lets not care who's teaching us anymore. we've been complaining whenever we got teachers we didnt like. for these last few months, i guess it doesnt really matter anymore.

for me: im just gonna do my part and do practices after practices. over and over. till i practically drop. haha. hopefully that happens after the Os la.



6points the target. B3m!!! haha.

okay. yay. i think that im really into the study mood. morning do work in school. skip recess to do work. go home do work again. haha. i think ive never done so much work. oops. lazyyy...



went over to kovan to get dinner today. also, ordered the new HP book from popular. darn its expensive. how annoying. nvm. the heartache will disappear as soon as i get teh book on saturday, perhaps sunday. AHAH. and besides, i got a 25% discount for books bought at popular. and... theres another $5 voucher. haha. yay, i need new files anyway.



did mention that 'Pirate Master' is a cool show? yeah another of those reality series like survivor but its soooooo much cooler. theres like money to be won each week. and the captain of the ship gets like 1/2 of the loot each episode: thats like a whopping US22.5k. haha. rich dude won it twice in the first 2 episodes. 42.5k in total. lucky shit.

ahh. i checked out some of the JC websites today. and now im totally unsure of where i want to go. i had been planning on joining dragonboating as a cca in jc, but it appears that only nyjc offers that. but eeyer, i dont wanna go there. its so near my house, id be forever stuck in serangoon. besides that, i dont know what else that i can join as a cca already. annoying laaaa.

somebody help me make up my mind. convince me or something.

i thought i saw a glimmer of the past. i guess its nothing but my imagination. theres no light at the end of the tunnel. the only thing thats waiting is that horrid Olevel. haha. okay. studystudystudy. busy as a bee. honestly- i would have responded.

I cant sleep,

I just can't breathe,

when your shadow is all over me baby,

Don't wanna be,a fool in your eyes,

Cause what we had was built on lies,




And when our love seems to fade away,

Listen to me hear what I say,


I don't wanna feel,

the way that i do,

I just wanna be,

right here with you,

I don't wanna see,

see us apart,

I just wanna say it straight from my heart,

I miss you.....


What would it take,

for you to see,

To make you understand,

that i'll always believe,

You and i,

can make it through,

And i still know,

I can't get over you,




Cause when our love seems to fade away,

Listen to me hear what I say,


I don't wanna feel,

the way that I do,

I just wanna be,

right here with you,

I don't wanna see,

see us apart,
I just wanna say it straight from my heart,

oh baby i miss you,

i do...




Cause when our love always fades away,

Listen to me hear what I say,


I don't wanna feel,

the way that i do,

I just wanna be,

right here with you,

I don't wanna see,

see us apart,

I just wanna say it straight from my heart,

I miss you,

i miss you,

i do...


I don't wanna feel,

the way that I do,

I just wanna be,

right here with you,

I don't wanna see,

See us apart,

I just wanna say it straight from my heart,

oh baby i miss you, i do...



ahh... i think thats such a nice song! aye, apparently my attempt to cut down on the love songs isnt working. who cares la. their nice to listen to while studying late into the night.





talking about late into the night, im tired. ahhhhhh. sooooo tired. now i seriously think im becoming weak after passing out. back then, used to be able to sleep at 2-3ish wake at 530 head over to school and not feel tired until perhaps thursday or friday. now...? sleep at 12-1ish wake at 530 and im tired at like tuesday. haha. WEAK.





haha. some DEAR girl called me DEAR boy recently (ummm...???). anyway, it got me thinking: i think mousedeer (s?) are cute! haha. have you ever been down to the night safari to see them? haha. they look totally like bambi from the movie! makes me want to visit the night safari just to take a personal look at them after the Os. haha. i shall!
































CUTE! ahahaha. told you.



OH. i feel so fortunate that i decided to turn down the offer to go watch Harry Potter on saturday. heard for albert and jerome that it was awful. hahaha! saved $$$. yeah. and still got some work done that night too. however, there are just so many movies coming out to tempt me. hah. i think i'll deviate from my study schedule just this once to catch the simpsons. oh the advert looked pretty good. plus- its in 2D! soon then.


ooh. theres another thing. this weekend is SOMEONE's birthday HOR. haha. see i didnt forget. yeah, and i only have 1/2 of your present. umm. yeah. you'll see what i mean when i pass it to you. if you're reading this: how about we meet for up earlier on your bday to ... lunch/study? then i pass it to you first. how about THAT. haha. oh and remember to memorise what i asked you to. HAH.


hmmm. what happened in school today. errr.. nothing much actually, lessons as boring as ever. haha. OH. my amaths is as careless as ever. haha. matrixes test i did ALL my working wrongly. then leong AL got damn pissed off and marked EVERYTHING wrong. haha. imagine that, all the answers were correct but i got 2/25. =/ damn. cant afford to be that careless in Os. i dont even dare to look at that paper. buried it somewhere deep in my file. at least kinda/sorta redeemed myself by getting 26 in the department test. whew. okay, this week, chiong amaths.


CL listening compre was kinda a fiasco. was so sleepy. haha. we actually had to be seated in the classroom by 2, and the LC started at 3? omg. i think i nodded off once during that period. cos the container of pencil lead i was fiddling with suddenly flew out of my hands and onto the floor. hmmm. magical propulsion powers. haha. other than that, i was having fun teasing kevin. both about his 'cute' passport photo as well as.... AHEM. hahaha. kevin is a liar liar.


oh do you sometimes have the feeling that you dont know how you're feeling? yeah i know that it doesnt really make sense but thats how ive been feeling quite a lot recently. i dont know if i should be happy or worried or sad. in the end, i mostly just appear to show this 'who cares' attitude. i think my feelings have been screwed with in some way that they're all haywire or something. die die.

ooh. dad is buying a new car! according to him. if he doesnt change the car by september, its value will drop by around 5k? interesting. anyways, he's chosen the nissan murano. im told that its so bloody spacious at the back that my sis was sliding all around the back seat during the test drive. hahaha. ok. thats a funny mental picture. psst: i'll get pics of the new car up once it arrives.

other than that, its been just another boring weekend. spent studying eating tving and sleeping. man im gonna be some bloody fatso by the time the Os are over at this rate. i really gotta try to find some time to hit the gym. perhaps nxt saturday before tuition. OMG- the mizuno run is next sunday. haha. my cough is still with me, guess i'll be taking it with me for the entirety of the 5km then. seriously hope i dont collapse. not cos im afraid i'll die, but i think eugene is serious about his offer to give me butt-to-mouth if i faint. hahaha. now THAT would be a fate worse than death. im sure you'd all agree.



Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing
I'm tryin' to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
No I can't fake it, there's no one else

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

goodbye hair. *waves*

my hair must hate me. everytime it gets anywhere close to being able to be termed 'long' i head over to the barber's and go: 'uncle, crew cut please.' BYEBYE! no more hair. yeah, and now its gonna take roughly another 2months for it to grow back. which will then spark the same cycle all over again. yeah, if i were my hair, id hate me too.

what a LOVEly day. okay, nah it wasnt that good. just that so many things i did seemed to be linked with love. damn. everybody's in love.

firstly. i finally found the time to read the novel: Remembering the Titanic. okay, brief summary- it pretty much tells a tale revolving around 2 couples who survived the sinking of the Titanic, and how they deal with the aftermath of that horrible night. damn. the couples are sooooooo sweet towards each other. so understanding and patient with each other. to borrow a line: i might just get diabetes after reading it.

okay. trying to lower the blood sugar level so i turned on the tv to check out to movie. andddd.... another tale of a couple and the trials they go through in the days leading up to their wedding. yada yada yada. boy likes girl, girl likes boy. they agree to get married. girl flirts with her boss and gets caught. argument, they decide to call off the wedding. in less than a week they realise that they cant bear to be apart and then get back together. fairytale ending. yeah- how many people in life are gonna be that lucky. not me for certain. if not for bad luck, i wouldnt have any luck at all. =(

urgh. okay. played tennis for the first time at joel's house today. or rather, attempted to play tennis. i cant even serve properly for goodness sake. aye, i guess i should just concentrate on my studies instead of wasting my time on stuff like that.


perhaps i should just wash my hands off everything besides studies. nothing ever does seem to work out well for me. its better just to not get involved with anything since nothing good ever comes from it.

alright. firstly, i would seriously like to apologise. yeah, i know when ive been wrong. i know ive been extremely irritable and snappy these past few days. all linked to the kind of crappy results that ive been getting. kinda brings about a feeling of desperation and hopelessness. errr... i guessed ive figured out the source of all the 'pissed off'ness. its not so much the results, but more the fact that im so mad at myself for not putting in anywhere near the amount of effort that i know im capable of, not performing up to what i know i can. aye- whats done is done. the new strict regime begins now.

in conclusion: yeah ive seriously been an ASS. yeah one of the highest degree. hopefully you arent too mad at me. i know you messaged me to try to help. sorry i kinda snapped at you. i dont really dare to talk to you now. just hope you forgive me.


okay: results.

english: b3
damn. i knew i screwed up my essay. MI script somemore. nvm. i'll do better in prelim3 and the Os. and ooooh- i calculated without the MI plus the oral= 72!!! okay. prelim3 must have an A already. target.

chinese: b3
haha. stupid but nvm. i think i did better for the Os paper. so i think this one only counts for this prelim. no worries =D

emaths: b3
aye. careless as always. i cant seem to kick the habit. could have gotten my A if not for the careless mistakes. annoying problem. can be solved through practice i think

amaths: d7 (urgh)
okay i admit. serious screwup. i didnt do any practice at all. yucks. no way im gonna let this happen again. damn i feel bad la. the only tuition i have is amaths and i still fail.

physics: b4
okay. paper1 careless. paper2 i like, at least theres quite a lot of improvement. paper3 DAMN. someone save me la. i dont know how to solve those long open ended questions.

chem: c6 (eeyer)
my basics are obviously super duper weak. all that i can do is to build up on whats lacking. wish me luck. i'll need it.

history: a2
ayeeeeeee. malayan history is not the problem. the scope for modern world is so absolutely huge. okay, that pulled me down. prelim3 = a1, thats a must.

ss: a1
HAHA. yay. but sadly, its only half of the combined humans. which is totally messed-up thanks to elective geography.

elective geography: d7
horrid! thats the only way to describe it. hmm. i think ive done too much history and ss cos i realised something when i looked at my geog paper. i wrote it according to history LORMS!! its like this, every essay was Point Elaboration Example Link. yucks. and like each paragraph only got me .5 or 1mark. okay. im following j.huang's advice of spamming points. hope it works.

A FOOL. THATS ALL I AM.

okay. im sparked to life. no more fooling around. no more time to 'pick up the pace'. from now on, its full time mugging, full steam ahead. i cant keep thinking that theres still time for me to chiong. this is it, this is the time to chiong, ive already missed a good part of it i think.

sacrifices will have to be made. no more leisure stuff anymore. sorry to those ive made certain commitments to. if ive agreed to meet up for movies or whatnot- sorry but i guess i'll have to withdraw. that means i wont catch harry potter this saturday then. oh and dont bother asking me out if work isnt on your mind. i'll only agree to meet up with people who want to study, no more play. =(

oh, mum's going to the hospital tommorow for some minor op. lets all wish her the best and that the op goes smoothly and according to plan. tsk- i cant even visit her after school cos of the stupid SLB Investiture Rehearsal. i quote yuesheng: 'its a waste of our time to do bloody freaking hell nothing'. and THATs being specific.



i am depressed. cos im so screwed up and stupid.

TOODLES!!! im high!!!

boy boy boy. just look at the time. its almost 1 and i just got home from chma(2007). it truly was a blasty blast.

okay. tuitioned till 6. then mrted with kevin to bishan to meet zhishen and iggy. okay- im lazy to carry on with the usual step by step. so for this post, it shall be skip by skip alright?

chma started at around 8? basically, it owned.
chma:
Catholic High Music Awards
-solo vocalists
-group vocalists
-solo instrumental
-group instrumental
-guest performances

haha. damned fun. okay. it was so great but i cant remember most of it. oh ya i wanna congratulate (toons-joelchua-marcustans-keith) for their great performance [Hotel California] which won them the overall best award. i'll try to get the video to post here so that yall all enjoy it overandoverandoverandoverandover again. hahaha.

waited around for joel after the show then went to bishan north market for kwaychap dinner/supper. mind you, it was like 20 of us eating from the same stall at roughly 12 in morning. i bet the stall uncle was darn happy la.

taxied back to sgn with tedmund and poon. ahhh. poon lives so close to my house! hahaha. and i didnt even know that there was a street soccer court there. woohoo. next time can go play... maybe after Os. nows not the time.

yeah i know that i didnt ask anyone along to chma this time around. im sorry but its cos this is the first year ive found the time to go myself so i didnt want to ask someone only to have them disappointed. ANYWAY- now that ive seen it for myself, i can vouch that it truly and honestly rocks. so... ... well lets just say that the next one is roughly a year from now. go figure.


sorry for the extremely crappy and uninformative post above. im still kinda high after all the happenings and my hair is too wet to sleep. dont wanna wet my pillow. hahaha. OH, did i mention that the stars are so clear and beautiful when you look up into the sky at 1 in the morning? hmmm. that reminds me, i wanna go down to changi beach and camp overnight there after the Os or something, just so i can stay up late and enjoy the waves and the stars. oh boy, i cant wait.

' ahhhhhh. today was *cough* horrible! siandedness to the highest level la. *coughcough* all the papers that we got back today just served to *COUGH* make me more depressed. *COUGHCOUGHCOUGH* absolutely sucks. well at least i didnt do that badly for my emaths. not up to scratch but still *ACKACKACKACK* (chokes and dies)'

pardon me:
the above passage is a simulation of how i will probably be speaking for the next week or 2.

well, just think about this- have you ever been suffering from an illness thats so horrible and sickening that you just keep wishing that you were dead...? no? WELLLLLLL neither have i actually. =p. THANK GOODNESS.

this flu/cough is just so troublesome and annoying cos i cant concentrate on anything i do at the moment. just so you know, this sort of hacking cough doesnt exactly do wonders when i need to concentrate on work. the body ache also doesnt help the fact that im feeling so unfit and i want to go to the gym!!!

HAI. too bad then, my life shall just be school-home-sleep until i recover. booo.

aye. its only officially the 2nd week of term 3 and im already scared and starting to prepare for the next prelims. this is sick.

SEE. look what the Os have done to this slacker. darn. if being a mugger is what it takes to go to vjc, i guess im gonna have to do it. block out everything else ... ...

sometimes life sucks. it seems to take a turn for the better, only to drop a whole shitload of crap on you the very next moment when you arent expecting it.

since i know that 'certain' people might read this, i cant really write everything here. yeah. some things should either be said out loud directly to the person, or not said at all. you cant even begin to imagine how it feels to find out something like that la.

Song name: Stupid Love Songs- The Midway State.

Back alleys are so dark at twelve and one o’clock,
I’m empty handed with only a glass but no I won't drink.
Its seven-thirty again I’m dreaming that I had a life
instead I’ll sit here on the edge of my bed,
singing stupid love songs that don't ever end.
I don't want to hate you.
I wish that I could love you.
instead I’ll wallow in misery
and dance to the rhymes of your sweet nurseries,
well I’ve tried begging down your stone cold eyes
but I should have known
that I’d look too far from what's inside of your heart.




the song kinda sums it all up. =/

ahh. running is nice. i just dont like stadiums horrid boring places that seem to sap your energy. cant 2.4runs be outside somewhere? like perhaps the reservoir would be kinda cool, seeing that its so close to our school anyway.

i could feel the fats burning away with the perspiration.


alright: lame time.

ROAD SAFETY STORY:
once upon a time, on some random screwed up street, there were 2 oddly coloured houses- RED house and GREEN house. RED girl lived in RED house, and GREEN man lived in GREEN house. (yeah i know, imaginative names)

so on this oh-so-fine day, RED girl decided to bake a cake, but ran out of sugar. since this is a screwed up street, there were only 2 houses there. thus, she decided to cross the street from her house to borrow some sugar from GREEN man. however, unbeknownst to her, GREEN man was taking a shower ... ...

doorbell: DINGDONG!!!
RED girl: helloooo? is anyone there? can i borrow some sugar?
(GREEN man gets out of shower/wraps a towel around himself)
GREEN man: hold on a moment!
(GREEN man opens the door, and his towel gets caught on the doorhandle, and drops to the ground)
RED girl: yikes! thats disgusting! you're naked!!!
(RED girl runs across the street, trying to escape into her house)
BANG! she gets knocked down by a car.


moral of the story: " never cross the road ... ... when the green man is flashing" =D

O level oral briefing with mryong today. haha. have i mentioned how nice he is as a teacher? as compared to when he's a CO. ahem. okay. that should be taken a praise.

okay, discussed several possible conversation topics. i think its kinda useful cos his predictions are usually so accurate. thanks for taking the effort to call us back on youth day to help us prepare for our oral. yeah, honestly: BEST.

argh. okay this is annoying. i have achieved my 6pecs. then i realised that theres like a layer of fats covering it. yucks. haha. can see the definiton, then also can feel the fats above it. eeww. okay, jogging later. at least 5km. yeah, lets go.








sometimes i think its kinda wierd, the kinds of songs i listen to.
lets see:
love songs
emo songs
sappy songs
country music (which generally is still love songs)


hmmm. seems wierd. too much love in my diet. i need a stricter diet. love is overrated.

alright- i just spent practically the whole day out. and doing nothing. IM BORED. therefore, ill try something lame. here goes:

A is for ARIC chia who still thinks that i have a girlfriend (NO I DONT)
B is for BEE which is me!
C is for CORINE which is the person that is causing tawan and germain to become crazy
D is for DAD. the ultimate role model. woohoo. although i do argue with you sometimes. sorry.
E is for ELECTIVE-geography, which i need someone to teach me
F is for FOOTBALL, which i watch lots of but suck at. haha. arsenal!!!
G is for GYM, yeah, my new favourite place ... ... apart from my bed.
H is for HILARY!!! yeah, my name is nice.
I is for IGNATIUS, who i spend lots of time building interracial relations which (hahaha. estherboy!)
J is for JUST ran out of things to say.
K is for KOOLXXZZ, which is twittalk, i hate that.
L is for LAMENESS. its a gift, and you cant have it! haha.
M is for MUMMY! i often wonder what id do without her. id be like living in a pigsty.
N is for NANANA. banana? i havent got a clue what to say
O is for OREO blend. kevin liam's favourite drink.
P is for PRELIMS. 3 bloody prelims. hate it. but i guess it helps. im lots more hardworking! yay. hope i sustain.
Q is for QUACK QUACK. which is ... ... the sound a duck makes?
R is for RJC!!! yucks. wont ever go there even if i can. horrid.
S is for SAJC!!! perhaps my 2nd or 3rd choice JC. i dont know, ive been hearing some things which kinda put me off.
T is for TJC!!! another nice place to be. far though. and the uniform aint very nice. huuuhh. dont know la.
U is for ULTRAMAN! nvm. when theres nothing to say. you be lame. -__-"
V is for VJC. ahem. obviously the 1st choice JC. yeah. far but i dont mind if my results are good enough.
W is for WATERSPORTS. yeah. thats the kind of cca i want to join. toughness is cool.
X is for
1.
the cardinal number that is the sum of nine and one; the base of the decimal system = 10 = a multiple of 2: which is my favourite number. HAHA!
Y is for WHY have i just wasted half an hour on this post? cos i have nothing better to do! thats why.
Z is for ZZZZZZZZZZZ. sleep. blissful sleep. sleep is good. i love sleep.


alright. i dont think i missed out any letter right? i tend to be stupid that way sometimes/ most times/ almost always. okay! i think i shall go start being a muggertoad and read some physics. till next time, when more interesting stuff happens to me.