oh dear. will i fit in?

schools a mere few days away man.. and its not just any old school reopening, its THE school reopening. in a new school. new environment. new friends people. new everything. what the hell am i gonna do if i dont fit in? tsk tsk. i'd just shrivel up and die or something.


anyway, today was the last day of work... if you can consider what i do work. heh. more like stealing money. i must say that ive been really lucky to work at places where the people are so pleasant, if not downright likable. hougang point may not be the ideal place for a salesperson cos it has such a lazy feeling and not many people pass through (at least on saturday afternoons) but today was probably one of the less boring days.

the optical shop people were once again wonderfully friendly and warm. even that fierce looking kenneth is actually a nice guy. haha. kept talking to me and joking. i guess the only problem is that he was using chinese, and me being me, i kept saying: huh? bu4 ming2 bai2. (i dont understand). haha. darn paiseh. then michelle was kinda cuckoo. when i finally sold my first set, she drew this egg then showed a crack down its middle and said to me: see, no more ji1 dan4 (egg/zero). haha. irene was cool too, kept trying to make sales for me, and kept offering me choc chip cookies. haha. btw- yum.

lessons learnt:
1. dont eat choc chip cookies while working, the bits get stuck in between your teeth and makes you super self-conscious.
2. getting a friend to come down to talk to you helps pass time super fast. haha thanks derek! you killed close to 2hours! hope i didnt bore you to death.
3. save money during breaks. buying a carton of milk works wonders, fills you up even more than a full meal, its cheaper too. heh.
4. dont put your bag in the storeroom. errr... actually this one doesnt make sense, but its just that some lizard left me a present today. haha.
5. mmmm. ive spent like 5mins trying to think of no.5 but there doesnt seem like anything. HAH. too bad.

conclusion:
my work is boring yet fun. my pay is fabulouso. haha. sorta. my little ickle bits of useless wisdom are well and truly useless and i hope that no one ever uses them and blames me if something goes wrong. haha. in a nutshell- im full of crap. yay. tralala.


on a completely off topic... errr... topic, i would like to note that im probably the luckiest non-christmas celebrater (okay, i made up that word). while i was wasting my time stealing money from the company today, my family went for some belated/postponed christmas eve dinner (haha. like wth right?). anyway, presents!

muhaha, lets see:
1. slippers (and just when my havanas feel like their gonna give way anytime soon)
2. headphones (ive been griping about getting a set that doesnt have such long wires. yayy me!)
3. basketball top. (umm... i guess i'll use it when i run, sorta)
4. magnetic dominoes (haha. for me to gamble? i dont even know how to play. hahaha.)

not a bad haul. alrighty. i know im being nonsensical and boring and pointless and long winded and err... me. but im just truly wasting time waiting for the effing soccer match to start. hate the soccer channel. forever setting arsenal's matches as the last match. eeyer. match starts at 0115? wtf. haha. nvm. gonna try to sell books at bras basah tomorrow, the rest will just be recycled. yupp. till next time.


ps: i just get this feeling that everton are gonna own arsenal damm badly. haha. tralala.


heres another one of the weird songs i happen to listen to. kinda old though.

Michelle Branch- Are You Happy Now

Professional Professionalism... or something...

yayy. got the last presents off my hands today.

its a nice feeling to give out gifts. uhuh. and no, im not crazy. i really do understand why people say its better to give than to receive. hard to describe but its nice! (if the person likes the gift. hahaha.) shopping for gifts is a bore though, its incredibly difficult to try and get something that the receiver would like. haha. i try my best. hope its enough.


long time since i met you huh. the last time was on my birthday!!! hahaha! someone looks so professional now. like some business-person. i guess you lost your 'childhood innocence' (whatever that means). looking more cool and mature eh. not bad not bad. actually i think you're even borderline 'cold'. heh. $1000 pay better *ahem ahem* remember that you have me as a friend. HAH.


oh well. my OGL from sajc just called me. mm. she told me to be in school by 0710? wth. haha. i dont understand. it just seems to get earlier and earlier. the original was report to school at 0800 right? then the sajc letter said to report at 0720, and now she tells me 0710? haha. weird la. nvm nvm. thankfully i live nearby. now i no longer have long commute time! yay. 0710 it is then. i hope i fit in as well as in chs. yup. that'd be nice.

Christmas!!! Christmas!!!

Merry Christmas everybody!!! yayy!!! Christmas!!! wahahaha.

okay... im over it. as a free-thinker, i really dont feel the hype that Christmas brings. i guess to me its just another public holiday, and since its during the school hols i totally dont feel it. i dont know but i think i'll probably go for a run in the morning, then sleep or something the rest of the day. haha. everywhere's closed anyway, couldnt go out even if i wanted to. nothing to do! aye aye aye, and the hols are coming to an end. people, dont let my lack of festive cheer affect you though, go have fun!

one last thing: who's going sa! tag please.

simple plain and nice!

dont ask me why i removed the skin. i guess im just taking derek's advice to use templates and be simple. thats how i like it. simple.

*ouch* i just bit my own tongue while chewing gum and generally being a chatterbox telling my dad about the latest UCL draw. *ouch* dammit. Arsenal against AC Milan? dammit. i wonder if me biting my tongue is a bad omen for Arsenal. darn.

note to self: when chewing gum, shut your trap. biting your tongue hurts like hell.


working is weird- doing nothing is tiring while performing 'manual labour' allows me to forget my tiredness. haha. bookshop duty is great actually, i wouldnt mind doing it on a daily basis. the two days this week have been fun. made a couple of new friends too. the 9 hours today shifting-lifting-selling just flew by. it was so entertaining that i didnt even realise that i mysteriously received a medium sized gash on my calf which bled all down my leg. heh, to think i only spotted it when i got home. anyway, another $65 into the pocket, thanks junlong for the job intro.


oh yeah another thing, i think im inexplicably drawn to lesbians or something. nono. not that im interested in them or anything, but i just saw another lesbian couple making out at the void deck of the block near my house. once, id call it a coincidence, twice in 3 weeks, i dont know what to call it. but but but.... WHY CANT I AT LEAST SEE THE PRETTY ONES!!!! dammit, both couples ive seen all have tomboy hairstyles, tomboy postures and tomboy clothes. looked more like gay kissing la. yuck. dammit. rotten luck. haha. (shitt what if they WERE gays... )


anywayyy. taken slow strolls around serangoon estate at 7/8 plus after dinner is really relaxing. not exactly the first time ive done it but rather the first one ive enjoyed cos i dont usually have the time to slowwwwly walk. i took a super long 20min walk from my place to the mrt station (its only 5min away). walks give me time to think, and allows food to digest!! haha. cool.


ps: thanks to cheeyong for swapping work postings with me this weekend. you saved me about 30mins of waiting/travelling time.


Busted - Crashed the Wedding









dont you just love (okay maybe not) acoustic songs. i believe that the emphasis on acoustics brings out the song more. much much nicer. compare!


besides, does anybody know what happened to 'Busted'? i liked/like that group, go try listening to their songs, so totally off the norms of love songs. sappy and yet... unsappy?



edit: oh and what the hell is the deal with this stupid EAGLES thingy? how to collect and what to do with the irritating letter? lets just get it over and done with.

PICTURES.

Disclaimer:

Hilary Teo Wei Jian-Me-Yours Truly-Moi is not responsible for whatever retina damage, be it temporary blindness or permanent blindness, is suffered by the viewer after looking at the aforementioned pictures. This is especially true if you were looking at some odd looking weirdo in a green shirt and suddenly went blind. Therefore, do not- i repeat- DO NOT come to me for monetary aid or financial backing for medical surgery to correct your horribly scarred eyes after viewing.

HOWEVER.. you can always come to me to buy contact lens solution! =D

i still dont understand why kevin was leaning on me... ?

alright. looking more natural now. im still weird though.

okay, no idea why people like jumping on my back. is it fun?

*yawn* im rather sleepy today.

attended yzps 6D'03 class reunion cum Eloise's farewell gathering yesterday evening. oh i use the word evening flippantly. what i really mean is that we met in the evening, had dinner, caught a movie, then wandered rather aimlessly around amk central for a few hours before the final few of us decided to have prata at serangoon. ( i didnt! ) thereafter, walked all over serangoon sending people home. all in all, i think i reached home at 0130? so well, yea - evening.

that was nice. its been 4years since we studied together as a class and i guess we've more or less drifted somewhat during our secondary school years but still, nice. till we meet again then.

P.S : Lina and Athalie are darn loud fierce and scary can! hahaha. okay dont kill me.


*yawn* still sleepy.

i came home this morning. took a bath and did some exercise then watched the Carling Cup match between Blackburn and Arsenal- 0355 to 0655. at least i didnt exactly waste my time since Arsenal won 3-2 but i was feeling kinda grumpy cos the irritating players threw away a 2-0 lead to cause the game to go into overtime, meaning that i lost another 1/2hour of sleep.


*yawn* are you starting to understand my day?

koon woke me up at 0830 with his message that he was already waiting at Bishan Park. umm. and to think that the plan was to meet at Serangoon Bus Interchange and then RUN to Bishan Park. well... whatever. so rushed to meet ivan at interchange and ran to find koon. oh guess what, i can safely say that its not exactly easy to run, yawn, and pant at the same time. honestly, its downright irritating. its feels like spastic spasms.


*yawn* i think i'll try to sleep earlier today.... like 12midnight! hahaha.

58-ed home, showered, changed and 58-ed back to bishan with ivan. had a rather hurried lunch at Junction8. hooray for subway! tastes so damn good. from what i hear, its the healthiest of the fast foods too. yup. alright. school was next on the agenda. and while there, i made the easiest $20-$25 ever. i havent got a clue why people tell me working at the bookshop is tough. if its because of the lifting and shifting or the packing and stock taking, id gladly do this sort of job any day. feels so good to have something to do and earning money for it. the lifting is basically like their paying you to train yourself with weights, and packing is like... errr, talking and organising stuff? aye, you bookshop people dont know how good you have it. too bad i'll only be working there for the sec1 orientation period. tsk. at $5/hour somemore. hai. its such a pity.


*yawn* thats kinda my day.

i guess i'll probably be lazing around for the rest of the night doing nothing. gonna see if i can get daniel to go gymming with me tommorow then. wish me luck! i need at the training i can if im gonna fit in easily with canoeing that i think im gonna join. besides, i need the exercise, this week seems like theres gonna be too much intake of food for me already. granny's birthday dinner tomorrow. judging from previous years, theres gonna be a really grand spread again. saturday, if theres no work, then i'll probs be andrew's christmas celebrations well... eating again. haha. fat fat. monday night still has christmas dinner with mum's side, and koon was saying something about christmas night dinner at HIS place. omg. i think i'll be some huge fat monster by the time this stretch is over. hahaha. okay. waiting for parents to come back from ... whoknowswhere.. with dinner. haha. seee. food again. horrible. i need to keep my eating habits in check.

hey people. did yall enjoy yourselves this weekend? yes? good good. well i didnt. hai.

work is well.. work. what can i say. its one thing to be tired from working too much, its another to be tired from doing nothing. i'd take shitloads of work over feeling un-needed any day.

Tiong Bahru Plaza has got to be the most annoying place for a part time worker- it has no benches or seats to sit on during breaks. yup. none. zero. zilch. NIL. and after pacing the area outside the optical shop for like 8plus hours, all i wanted was a seat. tsk tsk. i was so tired that i just sat down at some corner and stoned for half an hour for my break. i must have looked darn sad and lonely cos this kindly old auntie came to me and asked: 'eh boy? are you alright? you look sad.' HAHA. damn funny la the auntie.

ooooooh. another thing ive noticed in common about both my work postings- optical shop workers EAT DAMN LOT OF TIDBITS. at BoonKeng, the two girls like ate so many packets of chips in a day that I'D feel sick just looking at them eat. at TBP, the guys kept buying 'bagua' from the shop next door. haha. so oily and fattening. well, i must admit that the location of the TBP shop makes it damn hard to resist snacking. its opposite some fancy icecream parlour, beside the bagua shop, diagonal to 'Famous Amos' and a few shops down from 'MrBean'. im proud to announce... I DIDNT SNACK! wahahaha. although, my meals werent exactly healthy. ive been eating a shrooms burger meal for like my only meal of the day for these few days. hai. fast food sucks man, tastes darn good but feels darn bad. hope it doesnt affect my getting back into shape.

talking about getting back into shape... HAHA! my training regimen is working i guess, ive shed the weight i put on during the Os period and more. besides, my stamina is better than its been in months. in other words, its working its working its working! haha. yayyy me! many thanks to koon, joel, ivan and daniel stephen too. theyve been the ones who have ran-swan-gymmed with me.


something totally unrelated: ***************** asked me recently:

'you ever felt like the world's crashing down on you? and you've got nowhere to go, nobody to turn to, nothings left, alls lost?'

answer: mmm. having had time to think about it, i guess its a really good question to ask don't you think? i'm guessing that its gotta be a rather common feeling amongst teens cos of all the teen angst and all that crap but no one really knows cos its not usually the thing that people talk about either right? what do all you people think? (and by that im addressing this question to gabriel and edwin, cos i dont think anyone else reads my ramblings. but anyone else is free to answer too! hahaha)

NOTE: my life is officially damn screwed up.

dont you think that its so much better than the original version?

shitttttttttttttttttttt.

i dont know if its true but i sure hope its not, cos i really really really really really really dont want to see you. urgh. and just when the day was going rather well too. dammit.

(doesnt matter if no one understands. i just wanted to say it)

anyway, posted to TiongBahruPlaza* this weekend for work.11-9. i just hope theres more to do than just standing around.


lastly: urghhhhhh

Catholic High without Sir Yong aka Bob aka Mr Yong? can't imagine it. 4years under him in NCC, 2years under him in his form class. a wonderful teacher - its Lee Hak Boon's loss.




its incredible how you can influence my feelings like such. one message can make me soar, silence causes me to crumble. unrequited affection sucks.

The aim (kinda) of this post is to get you irritated, confused, pissed off, fed up and ultimately bored. in order to do so, the post is gonna be more or less random, probably with an incoherent and totally pointless line added in here and there just to irritate you further. ready? lets go.


working as a sales promoter isnt any fun at all. no one said it was right? working at SM Optics at bendemeer just compounds the feeling of boredom even more. my co-worker was cute though... ahem.

the scope of my job is basically to set up a stand outside the optical shop, and stone. uhuh. stone. remember that word. it isnt as easy as it sounds. the level of stoning must be just right. too little = pebble. too much = rock. just nice = stone.

according to instructions, im supposed to 'look out and target contact lens users', like i have some sort of super vision or mind reading skills that can help me spot contact lens users. by the way, just note that mind reading is seriously cool, and i seriously wouldnt mind having that as a superpower.

soo, that leaves me standing (yeah, theres no place for me to sit) at the door of the optical shop (with the cute co-worker inside- HAH) and literally stone. well, i guess its literally cos i could have sworn that i felt moss growing somewhere on my legs. anyway, theres really nothing for me to do except to wait for people to come up to me to take a look.

i did try out a theory i came up with though. you know how you can feel it when people are looking at you from behind your back? i tried staring at people as they walked past in hope that they'd look around and come over to take a look and give me something to do. well, failed theory.

okay. i ended up just 'people-watching', which is actually quite entertaining for like the first hour or so. unfortunately, i had 10 hours to kill. damm. thankfully, i realised that singapore is a really good country to do people watching, not exactly because the people here are beautiful, but cos singaporeans are incredibly quirky (whether we wanna admit it or not) and thus provide a rather entertaining show. seriously.

probably the highlight was when this couple came up to me during their lunch break, the lady was asking me about the contact lens solution:
man: eh dear, i need to go to the bank. wait for me?
lady: ok
(man walks over to the bank and pushes at the door. pushes again. and again)
man: aye. the door is locked, i think they went on lunch break or something.
(lady walks over to the bank and pulls. the door opens)

damn! i just completely laughed out loud at that point. i guess thats probably the reason they didnt buy anything from me. hmm...


WHILE WORKING, I

• saw an albino blowing at his hair and he was walking
• saw a young mother fall asleep while sitting on a bench carrying her baby (tsk tsk)
• saw a mother praising her young daughter for doing a dance that look remarkably like a pole dance (...?)
• saw a fat kid getting himself stuck in a gap between two pillars (he was playing hide and seek i think)
• saw a eccentric old lady training her dogs to do tricks in the middle of the crowded corridor
• saw those same dogs chasing and attacking a stray cat (ouch)
• overheard an armyman and his dad discussing their opinions on the definition of 'paikia' (ruffian)
• listened in a group of old men trading war-time stories (understanding dialect helps. heh)
  
• listened to a couple of bengs arguing over the difference between 'chio' and 'cute' (HAHA)
• realised that being offered a job which is 'rather relaxed' with 'nothing much to do' is only a good thing when you arent standing for the whole duration

heya! anyone still awake after reading all that nonsense? all that 'interesting' bits came out of a couple of days of working. if you think you're bored, i suggest you imagine multiplying that by a factor of 100, then remain standing with nothing to do for 10 hours. then, you'd sorta know what my job was like.

err. it wasnt all bad. at least im $123 richer. mm. actually more like $90-ish, since i bought peewee's birthday present today. ahh. well, at least now i know that id rather go for some office job in future. lucky cheryl with her internship. tsk.



The Rembrandts - I'll Be There For You
So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

running is good. running is good. running is good. (yep im psycho-ing myself)

being super lazy, i dont usually go running cos i'd be doing it by myself and its really really really lonely and boring when you dont have people to talk to. well, its been better these past 2 weeks or so cos ive been running with koon and gang as they prepared for their marathon run this past sunday. its been good. stamina's getting better. keeps me occupied. keeps me (relatively) in shape.

im guessing it helped in today's soccer session. since we usually play in a street soccer court, it means lots of frantic sprinting back and forth, not much time to relax. AND that means that im always tired like some dog with muscle aches at the end of it. today! no panting no aching no leg cramps! yayy. besides, today the soccer court was locked for some renovating purposes i suppose, then we played in this even tinier plot of land, with sports class people somemore. yep, i know its so short sighted but i take it as a tiny milestone in my attempt to get fitter. thats why, gotta keep up the routine! running-running-running.

now-just gotta get some poor soul to suffer the boredom with me on a regular basis.



alright, finally bought another pair of cargo pants today (hell im spending a lot of cash). then, i realised that i need a belt, (and by 'realised' i mean that one size doesnt fit and the next size is too loose) so i mrt-ed down to orchard (damm i hate orchard) with kevin and joshua to take a look at the shops.

sooo, we looked at ... ... ... yada yada yada ... ... ... cutting a long and tedious ranting short, i managed to find some suitable stuff, and was like mentally shortlisting and eliminating the stuffs cos of price. in the end, i spent another $39 on some bargain set:



well, it generally consists of a wallet, my belt, and some keychain that joshua insists is a can opener. (i have my doubts)


as you may have noticed, there is a Billabong wallet in the set, and i dont know what im gonna do with it. seeing that my nice white wallet is still relatively new and still in spanking good condition, i cant imagine that im gonna be changing wallets anytime soon. besides, my current wallet was a birthday present so must be treasured, right. so i guess its gonna sit in my wardrobe gathering dust. unless- anyone wants it? haha. i doubt i'll give it away, but... who knows?




yepp, heres my current wallet.

heres to the beginning of another supposedly boring week of holidays. exercising is the most exciting thing i can look forward to i think.

NOTE: 6D'03 outing. (i feel like im repeating myself for the umpteenth time)

heres the plan:
dinner then night safari
date:
18th dec
meeting venue:
amk hub
time:
1830

alright?


soccer tomorrow at iggy's. suits me just fine since koon and gang dont feel rested enough to go running again after their 10km exertions on sunday. (ps: im still sore that i didnt join up with them. damm!)




heres something that gloria is trying to get me to go to this sunday. well, you know me, i usually shy away from anything thats organised by church or a church group. buttttt, i dont know, im soooo bored that perhaps i might give it a shot, ONLY if i can get someone to go with me. yupp, anyone wants to go? havent got a clue what its about though, games and the like i suppose.

anyone?







Maroon 5 - Won't Go Home Without You

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remain unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

the holidays are boring, wouldnt you agree? ive actually nothing much to share, been jogging, and sleeping, and eating, and tv-ing, and listen music. yeah, pretty much it. well, im just here to share the cuteness:




cute right? all four kittens are zhishens la. darn. lucky bugger. he actually wanted to give one to me but my mum doesnt like furry animals, she only tolerates stinking fish. damn! haha. anyway, had a fun time feeding milk to them from a teeny tiny syringe this afternoon. damm im jealous, i wanna go back to his house sometime soon this hols to play with them again. hahaha. wait- im serious.