rather enjoyed myself today. i decided to stick it out in school instead of sneaking off early.. and i guess it was a good choice?
mm back to catholic high, basically just had one of those class chats with mrkrishnan again, yeah hes really inspirational. i remember the time that he turned Social Studies from a subject i hated and was failing, to one that i loved and could easily ace. imba teacher if i ever saw one.
hanging out at ivan's was cool. didnt get to soak in the pool though... soccer, basketball and frisbee kept us occupied. haha. loads of fun with the old gang again. ive never really gotten over how much i miss those guys.
teacher's day celebrations tmr! mm i sound so enthused when in fact i really dont feel much at all. is it just me, or is it a 'growing up' thing. im not even sure that i'll be going back to cat high tmr, now that mryong is no longer there, i kinda dont even feel that connected in a sense. my ncc-CO and sec3/sec4 form teacher, it kinda doesnt feel right not seeing him there.
on the other hand, i am rather looking forward to meeting with joshua and gang again. i really miss those guys, its like i used to see them everyday and we would crap about anything and everything. hanging out and chilling like the good old days.. that would be nice (;
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Cheryllwin! lol! i think the shirt is so cool, it has the number tag printed on it! ;D to badd.. ahaha.
KC haha. chrome bag supplier's daughter?? since when! mm. haha dirty old uncle la... tried to offer me drinks somemore. goodness..
Cheehao aha aha.. new skin not as nice.. its too difficult to read the words.. stop emo-ing la yall. adopt a more easy outlook on life!
xiwen haha.. are you sure yours is fine. youre always complaining about it! haha. remember: HINTS. like huge bloodyfreaking obvious HINTS. haha. us guys are just about as blind as bats when comes to such things.
Gabriel haha. nonsense! youre smart. besides, dont wanna see you there for 3years.. LOL
Eugene eh serious? if you really run that timing, i'll run with you. haha. my knee isnt fully healed yet so i doubt i can go at normal speed even. can probably crawl like a snail. hahahaha.
sigh.. its days like this that really make me wonder if i should be in the science stream.. still wondering why i took science when they always were my weakest subjects in secondary school. aye.. ohwell, gotta get my head down and work harder.. again.. haha. chem especially, physics i think its getting much better. someone help!!! dont wanna get retained okayy.. like seriously.
mm... weekend was alright.. got to catch the olympic canoeing finals on friday and sat, caught up on a little sleep on saturday afternoon too. felt great ;) sunday was hecticHectic HECTIC. haha. rushing all over the place... getting soaked in the rain on more than one occasion. stress, boredom, joy, excitement.. haha it had everything.
tuition was imba freezing as usual, even with my jacket.. seriously i think it doesnt help me much. haha. my body doesnt usually feel the cold, its more like my fingers and toes... urgh. owell! there were quite a lot of ahem "interesting" sounds coming from the massage centre next door though, heh. squealing, screaming, groaning and the like ...
mrt-ed down to clarke quay to join aaron and leon for the collection of our nike race packs.. the line was LONG. haha. like not regular long, but ... aye i havent seen the like of it since that hellokitty craze so many years back. lol. well queued for almost 2hours with them before i had to abandon it cos i had some appointment. haha. ran through the rain back to the mrt and shivered my way back to serangoon.
was kinda worried id be late... but then again.. WHO was the late one??? hahaha. no matter. you didnt even have to be so worried that we'd get locked out. haha. this sort of thing usually doesnt start on time, lol. okay.. sidetracked, went to Victoria Theatre for the AJC Dance Concert to support Jeryl. haha. mmm, it wasnt that bad la. when i first saw all the dancers in chinese dance costumes, i'll admit, i was like: "ohmygod, this is gonna be a long play". but it proved me wrong i guess, the dances were all pretty good, with some even quite funny. im told that Rapture was much better but ... aye, next year i guess.. ohand ... dunno if you read this but - HAH told you that youd want the strawberry muesli bar!
mm. went back to clarke quay after that to queue again.. at least i had xiaoyi to accompany me and talk to me. haha. must admit the queue moved much faster this time round, took about 2 hours? haha. it was like 8 before i got my racepack... but i guess its kinda worth it in the end la. the shirt is really comfortable and looks good too! ;) got the exact same bottle too, well well gave it to my sis lo. im sooo loving collecting race shirts. haha. thats what the marathons are for! i shall only join those with the nice shirts. lol. i want the sundown one!
oh! haha. must mention lwin so that her name will in on the post again. HAHA. mmm. what to say... OHYEAH shes a bully okay! always teasing me and whatnot. haha. but well shes nice.. and i still owe her a meal. urgh.. haha dont use all my money okayy. so heres to lwin the vp and the bully!
haha dont get me wrong, i dont really like f4, just that this is the only video that i can find of this song that i can post... nice though ;) love songs again. heh. its a bloody addiction i think.
ahh kinda wasted quite a lot of time today. the weather was just against me i guess. spent wayyy too much time on travelling to and fro.. ohwell.. shant get into that. haha. thanks to you for keeping me entertained all day though. psychic person.
mm. started the day off kinda strangely, was at somerset mrt then suddenly received a odd telephone call from lwin, kinda went like this:
me: hello? lwin: hello.. err, your cousin seems pretty upset, can you like call her or something. yeah. make her happy.
honestly, i'll admit i was stunned for like a couple of seconds, trying to figure out what was happening. haha. then i remembered xiwen's friend was going overseas, and she'd probably be at the airport... heh pls people, if you have to call me early in the morning, do try not to be so random - my low quality brain has a long startup time, it'll still be lagging.
mm. thenn... swimming again? its been nice to get into the pool to do laps. really really horrible thing is that the pool is uber crowded on sunday evenings, haha. with all the little kiddos have swimming lessons and such. mm maybe it was the zig-zagging that made the 20laps so damn tiring, then again, i might just be consoling myself that my fitness dropped again. LOL. id rather the former..
okayy back to the songs. this time, westlife! haha. i dunno, quite catchy, even after so many years:
Westlife - Home
Westlife - World of Our Own
Westlife - Obvious
personally, i like the first and last ones best, but .. i found the acoustic version of 'World of Our Own' quite cool so i decided to include it. ohwell. off to dinner.. haha. yay?
super tiring week.. haha. dunno why but ive been super sleepy all week, and all the useless chinese and gp lessons dont help either. i just feel like lying down and sleeping for a week or something ... a
anyway, headed down with some of the canoeists to collect the team attire, but due to come complications, they were able to provide us with our jerseys. dammit right, aye, im not pleased about it at all, especially when its all the stupid company's fault for giving our shirts to people who ordered later than us. ohwell, at least we managed to get our windbreakers. i must say im really happy with the they way it turned out, and im pretty sure the team is too, looks awesome. then there was that irritating auntie at the supplier's office who said stupid stuff... HAHA. she asked ME to go to HER HOUSE to collect the extra goods! like wth!!! ahh!!!
note: im not some auntie killer okay!! dont wanna attract aunties!!
mm. talked a little to tiffany on the bus ride on the way back. aye, its like should stop talking to her or something. haha. everytime she'll tell me some stuff that will make me think about stupid stuff. ohmann.. haha. nvm! no effect on me this time. lol!
oh! people, please send me nice retro songs alright? haha. just be nice and do it. im a sucker for love songs:
Chicago - You're the Inspiration
Peter Cetera - Glory of Love
ahem, dont you think the girl in the second video is pretty hot? haha. ahaha. yeah. the Karate Kid series was pretty good to watch..
like seriously. hahaha. im like living in heaven. woohoo. just last week i was eyeing those olympic cups that Macs were giving out, and complaining that i couldnt get them. then today, xian suddenly-randomly-out of nowhere, gave me a couple. haha. now i have 4 at home! yayy. damn cool! thanks!
waittt. thats starting the day in the middle. very messy. well... after staying up till like 4 to watch the Amsterdam Tournament and do my physics tutorial and copy naomi's tuition notes (heh thanks), i slept/napped for like 3 hours then woke up to leave for tuition. whoa like totally zoned out on the mrt, almost missed my stop. haha. but tuition was alright, was so cool under the freaking air-conditioner that i couldnt sleep even if i wanted to. welll. yup, basically just did practice questions from the tys and other school papers. ahem. boringg.
mrted down to bedok and met up with rachel for lunch. hmmm. kinda wasted my money on the imba expensive sweets that cost as much as my lunch. omg. haha. yeah, felt quite broke after that. mm. mrkieu called during lunch to say that trng was cancelled cos of rain.. err. yeah. so we decided to browse around at ntuc while waiting for aaron. lol. mmm, after some debate, we bused to bedok.R to see the situation for ourselves. thankfully, the rain had sorta stopped by then, and benjamin joined us as mrkieu let us down for trng. imagine that, only 4 people paddling in the whole of bedok.R. haha. how cool right. had fun with the marathon practicing stroking. not a bad trng la. i even found time to mess around with aaron's C a little. haha.
mmm. i guess im supposed to be studying chemistry noww, but ive just kinda be slacking around, listening to music and chatting online. dammit..
i wish this week would never end. pure happiness. haha.
training this morning at bedok.R. really nothing much, coach went through water safety drills, did some rescues and such. did that one man rescue thing with a T... -_- i didnt really want to but there werent any free boats left when it came to my turn. forcing yourself to capsize in a T isnt fun, its like such a heavy and stable boat that it doesnt want to cap. lol. dayna was a really strange victim to rescue okayy.. she refused to faint.. hahaha. then coach didnt let us go back to shore and made me hang on the her and the boat. lol, thankfully the T floats so easily. heh.
okayy didnt get to paddle much, just did a couple of km in k2 with weiyang, louis, then cheehao. weiyang was alright, louis was urghh, and cheehao was imba. hahaha. i guess that sums it up. louis is good in the k1 but in k2.. abit strange feeling. ohwell louis, you know i know right? hahaha. too bad. no k2 for us i suppose.
for the first time in years, i actually missed the national day parade! haha. yeah i was so tuckered out after the captain's talk, studying on the bus and doing homework at home that i just fainted or something at around 6. one moment i was doing homework on the floor, the next thing i knew my mum was calling me asking why i hadnt gone down for dinner. lol. how stupid.. schoolwork is irritating. yes it is.
back to work now i guess. i'll probably not get much sleep tonight.. heh. Amsterdam tournament match at 1255, then tuition at somerset at 9... then yeah.. back to bedok.R again. lol. what great fun. and after that in the evening? back to studying. tsk tsk. no social life.
ohyeah quote from eugene: "if you stay a prisoner to your emotions, you will never know the freedom of success"
whoaa. pretty great week. haha. nothing much all that interesting to note i suppose, but its been pretty cool all the same. its like ... i was super emo for like the 2weeks prior to this, seemed like the whole world was like adding to my problems or whatever.. but after sorting out my thinking and all, its just been like one big party. haha. ive been feeling awesome since monday where my knee felt much better.. then things were said, things were heard... yada yada yada. haha. made my week even better. hahaha. yup. feeling great, for the first time in ages, i aint distracted inside. lol!
i dont know if its just me, but everywhere that i look, the most common thing that people do nowadays is to push the blame, like nothing is ever their fault. it doesnt matter who you try to push it to, if youve made a mistake, or something goes wrong, youve got to look at the root in order to find out how to fix the problem. i admit, ive been guilty of this in the past, 'nagging parents' - 'lousy teachers' - 'cca too taxing' ... etc. but in light of all the rubbish thats been going on in my life, ive decided to do self reflection, here goes:
my parents have never really been the naggy sort, at least they havent been naggy towards me since i left primary school. i guess its partially cos they trust me, and partially cos they spend more time on my younger sister, but well, as ive mentioned previously, i think they're just about the best parents a person could ask for. theyre trusting, reasonable, willing to listen to explanations for whatever wrongdoings, and i can tell that they always want the best for my sister and i. given the choice to choose from all the parents in the world, id probably still pick my own.
teachers. i realise that ive been rather blessed in this department. im having real difficulty trying to recall any particular year where i havent had a teacher that was a total gem. mrsNg, msSuppiah, msHua, mrKrishnan, mrYong.. just to credit a few. these were the teachers that i can proudly look back on as the key motivators in my studies. they made going to school something to look forward to, made learning an urge. i guess now that im in jc i'll have to adapt that teachers will no longer be that close, and no longer that personal. honestly, my first impression of mrlee was a very bad one, he gave me the image that he was damned freaking selfish, the way he kept talking about how our results would cause him to lose his endofyear bonus and crap like telling us that all other subjects were useless except for physics... but recently ive been starting to wonder, been sifting through all that stuff that comes out of his mouth, that perhaps he has a hidden agenda. that maybe.. just maybe, its his way of motivating us to do better? maybe.
cca. now, heres where i have really nothing to say. used to see this as a chore really. used to be some compulsory thing i only took because the school said i had too and i had no balls to defy the school. its changed to .. something i derive pleasure from. the training, the yearning for improvement, the constant desire to receive recognition. thats what its about.
me. herein lies my problem. ive got to be one of the most messed up people around you'll have the misfortune to meet. i mean, i guess i seem okay on the surface, but inside - you havent got a clue. i think i consider the feelings and reactions of the people around me too much.. though that might not necessarily be a bad thing, its like whenever i have to make a decision, i tend to try to think of the best solution for everybody, and i get rather discomfited when there are people who arent happy with the decision. this fatal flaw, ive never really been able to get over. at the moment, life's just one big mess, and ive been rather depressed too. im getting the feeling that im just letting everyone i know down, especially the team. as a captain, i should be leading by example, which is obviously not the case. just look at me: my grades are a joke, my personal life is just a mess - screwing with my mind every moment, my paddling is snail-like, and now ive even got this stupid knee injury thats hampering my training. what kind of captain am i? haii. im also feeling really guilty towards my parents cos theyve always been so supportive and understanding and giving me time alone to handle my stuffs and all this nonsense is happening, i totally feel like im not repaying their trust at all... i remember saying that if i were the captain or some exco, id surely give the team my all, my 110%. but with all this crap going on in my life, id be lucky to put in 90%, im sorry guys, i know ive been a crappy captain thus far, i'll change. i promise.
