mmm. the moon looks good tonight. big round and yellow. beautiful. i really appreciate how its managed to inspire poets of times past. cool. yeah i was kinda staring at while walking home at roughly 11plus like some toot. who cares anyway.
haha. lets start from the beginning of the day. starting from the night feels weird.
teachers day. my last in catholic high. waited for hanxun to arrive and school and we headed off to bishan north to buy a cake for mr.yong. haha. left school at like 0720 and met *holymoly* ms thien and mr julian teo walking to school together. HAH, i dont know about the rumors, just what i saw. anyway, wished them and then ms thien looked so absolutely totally 100% embarrassed and shy. haha. her face was beet red.
us: happy teacher's day! ms thien: umm. hello. why arent you in school? assembly's about to start. us: oooooi. wish you must say thank you!
ahem. mr teo didnt even look at us. shy? who knows man. haha.
ANYWAY. bought some fruity tooty cake from the bakery at north market. by the way, id like to comment that i havent had any money returned to me okay. haha. OI hanxun banzhang! go collect the money from the class!
i shant dwell on the teachers day performance. if theres one thing im not gonna miss, its gonna be these sort of performances. and dont help make excuses about no time to practice because we're in the hall using it for prelims. trying to make us feel guilty doesnt work, apparently yall dont know us haha. besides, we're only in the hall until 1plus 2 the latest. no offence to those who worked really hard and all, but the performance was really a step down from previous years, totally thanks to one portion, took the flair out of the whole event. bah, dont wanna talk about it, judging from the response, those people should know.
annual teachers day meeting back at yzps. umm. yeah. i dont know what to say really. i was just feeling sooo tired. i barely could put one foot in front of the other and i think it showed. i couldnt think of anything to say, couldnt suggest anything to do. totally the picture of a wet blanket. sorry people. i dont know why, guess i shouldnt have been up so late the night before.
talked to ms suppiah. yeah she looks exactly the same as when she did when she taught us wayyy back in '03. yes, such a long time ago. seems to me like there werent that many sec4s back at yz this year. haha. im guessing that our class had the best turnout. i think someone counted 21 people? thats like half the class. not bad. took a few photos. haha. the only photos that i have with any primary school friends since the class photos we took years ago. i'll see if i can get them, and then post them.
haha. couldnt take it anymore when the gang all went into the soya bean shop. i think if i had sat inside with yall, you would probably have to carry me out. then again, you being you, i think you'd all just ps me la, leaving me sleeping alone there like some idiot. quote jeryl: 'eee. all bully me' hahaha. anyway, sorry for leaving so early. tired.
got home. bathed, took out history and... yeah, as expected, i fell asleep on the book. i merely managed to get through 8 pages? knocked out for 2 hours. haha. at least today's study session at mac was extremely productive. got through the entirety of russia. no more russia to bother me man. ho. yeah did all sorts of essays tonight.
urgh. soccer tommorow. yeah i wanna go. yet i dont know if what shape i'll be in after that sort of session to study for the rest of the day. think i'll take the risk though. let temptation take over for once.
remember. study with me! umm. okay, no idea who im talking to here. anyone would be fine. lets just make it a well known fact that i cant study alone at home. i'll just sleep or... sleep. haha. ask me out PLEASE. dont let me slack anymore.
prelim3 is half over now. and well, it hasnt been all that good. at this rate, i seriously dont know where im gonna go, probably some low end jc or a polytechnic. yucks.
monday english paper was alright i suppose, i just feel that writing a newspaper report was rather odd. come to think of it, we've never had a proper practice for this style before, i dont know how i'll fare. thankfully, the summary was so chock-full of points that i couldnt fit all of them into the regulation 150 words. 15 marks for content would go a long way to pulling up my grade to the target of a1.
tuesday urgh. horrid. okay, half horrid, emaths was... 'alright'. i mean, what do you call 69/80? some people would say that its not bad, but to have 6/7 marks taken off for carelessness? i seriously haven't learnt my lesson from past exams. right now its sitting nice and pretty at a moderated 77% for paper1, i hope that my careless mistakes dont cost me my a1 like they did when we had the olevel june paper mock exam.
gabriel asked me today: 'on a scale of 1-10, how disappointed are you with your emaths results?' part of me wanted to be happy for the 69, especially when i felt that i had done much worse, but there was this other part that wanted the a1 so badly. haha. alright, i need an additional 83/100 for paper2 after this one-week break to get my a1. i shall try will get it. CARELESS bugger me.
social studies. omg. sorry mr k. i think i seriously let you down this time. although sri lanka came out like i guessed it would, i think i misinterpreted the essay question, not to mention that i didnt finish up my source-based properly. disgusting. usually each of my essays take up only 3/4 page and gets me the marks i require, this time- no idea why i wrote 1 1/2 pages for each essay, leaving me with not enough time for the sbq. damn. my time management seriously sucked. and its not like my elective geography can help pull my combined humanities grade up either. eeyer. im so gonna mug for geog this hols so that i can make it look respectable.
wednesday haha. chinese? i crapped my way through it. for once, i totally didnt do ANY revision for chinese on tuesday. i think ive kinda developed this sort of 'hai-who cares' attitude towards it already. but then again. looked through notes in the morning bus ride and when in school. dont think i'll fare all that badly. perhaps could be able to scrape an a2? yeah i hope so. although my chinese compre skills are very very sketchy these days.
thursday physics. how depressing. who was the person who came up with the lousy idea of telling us that this prelim paper would be olevel standard? i kept doing the physics tys and thought that i would be prepared. BAH. took one look at the paper and...
the paper was a slippery little devil, tricky and everything. besides, my best friend-carelessness paid me a visit when i was doing the mcq. we talked and laughed and talked some more. but when he left, carelessness stole roughly 5mcq marks from me. DAMN HIM!
sniff. i seriously get the feeling that this prelims aint gonna turn out nice and cheery after all. someone save me. or rather- i really need to wake up and save myself. oh btw, tomorrow's teachers day celebrations. i'll probably be heading down to yzps for the last time to hang with the gang (or whats left of it) again. it'll be nice to see them again, teachers day being the only time we get to meet up. hmm. i think felicia's gonna buy flowers or something for ms suppiah. haha. well, we'll see.
When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a few minutes he means it
When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do
When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday, he is in love
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you til your done
When a guy says, "I miss you," he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else
yes yes. i know, prelim3 in a week. yes yes. i said i wouldnt be here. but i had to report on the intense horniness that was spreading around the class. haha. even in 4-1. largely all thanks to iggy.
okay, firstly. HAHAHA. hmm. yeah english oral was great. the two examiners were real friendly. i think i did well. the theme for the day was family, luckily enough for me. talked and talked and talked. kinda talked too much i think. only one prompt from the teacher regarding the picture. now- is that a good thing or not? i hope its good. oh by the way, mr.K spotted the oral topic for us. -_-" . yeah, the lesson before we were released, we only had 20mins. so he went through 'elderly: help or hindrance' and kinda went off the point a little, talked about family and such. amazing, i guess he's psychic. heh. we asked him to buy 4d after that, if he strikes a million or something we better ask for money. ahah. $)
okayokay. enough digression. back to today's events. it all started off with the iggyboy beside me who was feeling extremely bored in class. so, this kid made use of the fact that he had just changed his number recently (and that some people didnt know his new number) to play pranks on people by messaging them stuff like:
'dear dear, can i meet you after school today? i miss you.'
heh. he messaged people like cheeyong, elson, weesiong and albert. all had different reactions. cheeyong pretty much kept replying that it was a wrong number, even though iggy called him 'cheeyong dear dear'. hahaha. elson daoed the message, eeyer no fun right. weesiong was by far the most fun. i think he knew it was iggy or something. because he missed called iggy then replied: 'why i call you no reply. like that how to date, lets break up' hahaha. okay and he and xuhao kept looking back at us- although i think our acting was all that bad, cos apparently xuhao didnt think it was us.
albert. yes. horrible fellow. i went to tease him about the 'dear' thing during recess at his class and got cornered by his classmates. haha. jon clement and albert- tagteam? yeah, then they thought it was me so they messaged me messages that shouldnt ever see the light of day. hahaha. i think i should send my phone for servicing just for having those messages in there. okay, the mildest example from xuanyi:
'wahh sehh bee u gt dear nvr count me in... damn sad sia nvm i gna hv u 2nite ^^ muacaks! lurve u dearie xd'
HAHA. omg. makes us all sound so gay. just look at what exam stress does to perfectly normal people. mind you, that was the mildest, the ones jon sent were much much worse. hahaha.
now now. with all that excitment behind us, i thought id settle down peacefully to do some tys for the rest of recess. did i get the peace? NO. thanks to iggy again.
picture the scene: me: listening the music while doing tys iggy-terence-zhishen-kevin-victor-joshua-cheeyong-weesiong: gathered around doing work or talking
suddenly, i heard this huge burst of noise from infront of me, followed by raucous (haha. practicing for essays) laughter. looking up, i saw everyone laughing and victor holding his cheek. then i heard. IGGY KISSED VICTOR ON THE CHEEK!!! oh god, i just realised that im sitting next to a raging horny gay. hahaha. scary. at the corner at the back of the class somemore. who knows what he'll try next, id better be prepared to take him out. hoh.
anyway. victor was so traumatised after that, as was iggy. haha. iggy kept saying that he doesnt know why he did what he did, but we all know about his gay tendencies now dont we. watch out everyone, iggy's on the loose.
and that sums up another normal day in 4-5. good day to all.
After some time Ive finally made up my mind She is the girl and I really want to make her mine Im searching everywhere to find her again To tell her I love her
yeah yeah. everytime i think ive seen the worst, something worse comes along happily comes along and slaps me in the face.
MT Os was a disaster. b3m? like wth. after all that effort? and im gonna have to retake. meaning that im gonna have to take the mt paper for prelim3. yucks. just what i needed, another paper to spread my concentration for prelims and Os.
now, all out mugging. i guess im gonna stay in school till evenings doing tys and revision papers everyday from now on. the alternative, of course, is asking someone out to study with me after school. but... nah, im such a lazy person, i cant really be bothered. so if anyone wants to study, ask me out. hahaha. it probably aint gonna be the other way around.
take care. i'll probably only be back here after prelim3 to comment, or if i can resist, then this place is gonna be dead till after Os! wish me luck. im gonna need truckloads of it.
uhuh. i think this song is pretty good. doesnt make it realistic though. makes life sound so perfect, since when is it? =(
100807 Friday studied with pinky. im starting to like the soya bean shop more and more everytime. ahah. i think its super conducive for studying, plus the shop auntie doesnt mind. i think she likes us studying there cos it makes it seem like she actually has customers. heh. oh btw- yesterdays soya bean milk tasted wierd, too bland.
took the train down to plaza singapura. the basement looks so cool now. totally different from when i last visited. absolutely love the donut shop (obvious reasons). and well, there are so many other food joints that i didnt get the chance to take a look at. bright and noisy. come to think of it, i dont really like it that much anymore. dump me at changi beach at night alone. let me enjoy the sea breeze and the stars. yes. i think id like that more.
ANDREW's BIRTHDAY. happy birthday again! umm. yeah, went to his house. yup. it was quite a blast. dude- your house was seriously out of the way. okay. not exactly the gang of people id choose to hang out with at school, but i guess iggy hanxun arianto kevin and gang made it entertaining. more entertaining. =P the food was good. the atmosphere was good. nice get together. thanks for the invite. i bet i looked retarded in the pictures though. i always do.
urgh. somehow i just dont have the mood to do anything. horrid.
*oh to those people who think they know everything thats going on with me. think again. some of the lyrics posted DO mean something. others are just nice. go figure.
darn. dont know why but im feeling so tired today. maybe cos theres the feeling that these few days off will just be used for studying.
service award. colours award. tong ju award. chong seak chan award. actually do they matter? no. perhaps some people might feel that they do. look deep inside yourself, i believe we're past caring about such insignificance. i would like to think that those of us from ncc, no, ANY uniformed group, should have gained so much more over these last 4years to care about these kind of thing.
quote edwin:
i dont think any unhappiness arising from this is gonna be worth it.
i didnt join ncc just because of some dumb sheet of paper, and i dont think you did so. i didnt even know this award even existed.
i just feel that the bonds forged and new friends we've made during our time as a platoon in ncc is much more important than a stupid service award thingy.
brothers forever yo, CHSNCC(LAND) PART D's07! :)
quote junlong:
yeah, i gt the friends and a bunch of gd plt mates =)
in the end, isnt this what its all about? the friends and the memories. lets not allow petty differences to tarnish them. not that im saying they will. =P i agree- brothers forever. (junlong, just dont look for me in the toilet, hahaha)
anyway. lets get on with it.
they say a picture says a thousand words, i wonder what this one says: "woof x 1000"?
okay. the truth is that i didnt take any pictures today. whats the point. over the last few years, national day has really lost its charm. now its pretty much a day that the organisers make themselves look like fools trying to stir up festive feelings within the school body. if you think about it, the sec1s-sec3s who werent involved in the parade went to school today just to attend the flag raising and get a free icecream? hahaha. id feel like a wasted my time.
even the parade seems to be getting more and more dull each year. way back in sec1, its was a whole lot of hustle and bustle, i believe it was cos it was a prestige for a sec1 to be included in the contigent. sec2, alright, im not sure, perhaps it was more of trying to prove myself to my seniors? sec3 was a chore, more of a 'idonthaveachoice' kind of thing. now, it all seems so silly. no disrespect for those involved.
the service/colours award presentation was waste of time. i kinda felt it was more disrespectful than an attempt to reward service. they didnt even bother setting up the table until the last minute, kinda dumping all the plaques on the table in a heap, randomly giving them away. thats why i feel that awards are overrated, just know that youve contributed, it doesnt really matter if its noticed.
speech day. urgh. haha. i guess desmond summed it up with: 'if your parents accepted the invitation, they wouldnt be proud of you. instead, youd get scolded after that for making them come and waste time listening to all the boring speeches.'
haha. thats so true. i should have taken a picture of the people sitting around me to emphasis this point.
Darius, npcc chairman on my left: sleeping. Desmond, ncc(air) csm on my right: sleeping. Poon, softballer behing me: slept then woke up to read harry potter.
for my part, i was only interested in Sai Ming's speech (Valedictorian 2006). inspiring. 9A1s-1B3 if i remember correctly. Patrol Leader in scouts and one of the most approachable guys ive known from his batch. an all rounder and a nice guy to boot. cheers. (pssssst: i heard that he got $500 for his award!)
alright. i feel so cheated. i paid $8 for a movie worth $4. the simpsons movie was only good in the beginning. okay, since the only thing nice about the simpsons is the retarded humour, it was only funny in the beginning. i actually fell asleep during the 2nd half of the movie. bah! wasted my afternoon.
okay, my next 2days will probably be spent studying. i pretty much have arrangements with people. lets see if these follow through.
urgh. their coming. closer and closer.
Tell me what makes a man Wanna give you all his heart Smile when you're around And cry when you're apart If you know what makes a man Wanna love you the way i do Girl you gotta let me know So i can get over you
oh hello. i practically didnt get anything done today. what a waste.
sundays truly are a bore. ohwait, they're not much different from any other day, except that i dont have to go to school.
to quote mrs elaine goh: 'dont tell me yall have no life?' answer: yes. urgh, seriously cant remember the last time i thoroughly enjoyed myself. yeah. oh, actually i can- chma. but that was ages ago, havent even went out for leisure since. its been a month. now im wondering if im still human. the only emotions i remember feeling are sadness, lonliness, anger and guilt. i know its wierd, but somehow i dont really feel happy anymore when i laugh. id like to think its just the stress of exams screwing with my mind, but i think its a little very weird.
someone cancelled on me again today, so i did some night-to-morning studying yesterday. it seriously screwed around with my sleep cycles even more, cos i woke at 12 for lunch, took another nap to roughly 3 then sat around in a daze till 5. and now i feel quite refreshed and alert. how to sleep now? besides, i only managed to go through 1 chapter of chemistry today, took me around 1hour, what with reading in the car on the way to colin's place at jurong.
dinner was cool. some jap restaurant at a certain private club where my uncle uses the driving range. i think its the closest ive come to feeling happy and at ease. colin truly is a joker. haha. yeah, i guess its true that all cat high guys are super lame. he and his humorous stories. ive missed hanging out with my bunch of cousins, its like we've all drifted so far apart as we've grown. i feel like doing some reminiscing:
darren: used to be the little kid. yeah, now he's in sec2 and in monfort ncc. fast huh. we used to make fun of him for being plump cos of eating too much sweets and stuff. now? what a world of difference.
xiwen: aye. chicky. lol. i guess shes still the cousin that i have the most contact with, which still isnt a lot. used to spend every saturday down at her house with the rest of the gang. playing cards, listening to music, chatting online, buying sweets and tidbits from the minimart downstairs. those were the days.
charles aka jun: haha. my best bro. ever since we met in an aunts house when i was ?three?. inseperable at times. i still remember asking my grandma every friday night when i was little.. little-er: 'ah jun ming tian you lai ma?' ( is jun coming tomorrow?) haha. and now- hes going through OCS in the army. whoa. where did the years go? im serious.
derrick: yeah. mr nice guy. although he was (and still is) 5years older than me. always was super nice to all of us plus helpful to the adults and such. haha. my mum was forever telling me to learn from him and be like him when i grew older. i think i failed though. =/
darrel/colin/ ah zhong: yeah. the big boys. no matter that they were much much older than us. no matter that we must have seemed super childish to them. they were always there when we (the young ones) needed help or someone to play with. now? darrel and colin are studying in ntu, and zhong is... god knows where. haha. havent seen him in ages. i think hes working.
last but definitely not least. peiwen aka peewee: our jiejie (big sis) throughout the years. she was always the one who would look out for us in whatever that we did. when i say 'was', i actually still mean now. cos shes still there for us younger ones when we need her. haha. just last year, went with her and xiwen to wild wild wet, where she had free tickets and she rented the company deluxe suite chalet room. cool huh. thanks for everything. and sorry if we annoy you sometimes.
ooo. this post has gone on long. very long. ahh. about the song. i like fergie. mmm. i like her voice and her style of singing. just love the way she manages to bring in a twinge of latino accent into her songs. what a beautiful voice. haha. shes pretty too of course.
i know i'm not your favorite record the songs you grow to like never stick at first so i'm writing you a chorus and here is your verse
one week. two weeks. yeah, thats all the time thats left between now and prelim3. hell, and i aint even near complete with my revision.
weekends are crammed with late night studying. well... late night rather means till at least 3-4 the next morning. 'early' nights are kinda 1am. yucks. i hate my sleep cycle. its so screwed. as screwed as my eating habits. if i dont die from the lack of sleep (unlikely) then i think id die cos the gastric acids have eaten through my stomach walls. haha. interesting- lets see which one happens first.
see. so stressed and lacking the time already. and edwin and yongsheng still want me to go kayaking with them. crazy fellows. they may have the brains to do ultra last minute cramming , but i know that whenever i do that, i screw up like crazy. thanks but no thanks, ive got a date on that day, with my books, tys and worksheets.
system, making the anyway, this week, my dad got finally got his new car. huge. yupp. tall, big sophisticated looking. personally, i think it feels like sitting in a tank, towering over the rest. haha. i like annoying him by playing with the gps system, making the mechanical woman's voice drone on about instructions on how to get to his destination. hoho. at least now we wont ever get lost in jurong or pungol anymore. here, have a look at the 'face' and the 'ass' of the car:
not bad huh. but dont you think the gold-ish gate looks awfully gaudy? i kept telling him that pure black would look much nicer, but noooo: he made me paint it over with a coat of gold.
national day's coming up next week, so's speech day. so's the releasing of the Olevel Chinese results. eeyer. mryong says: B3M
alright. today's physics lesson was cut short by half an hour because the lecture theatre was gonna be used for some talk. TSK. haha. how dare yall cut short our lesson in this crucial period. hais. lol. anyway, kevin was supposed to meet me and gym before meeting up with albert. HOWEVER. he ps-ed me. not wanting to go alone, i decided to catch up on homework at home. haha.
oh but i found out that kevin didnt ponn lesson or ps me! apparently his dad went to hospital and needs some minor surgery. ummm. good luck? hope your dad feels better soon.
i tell you. my amaths tuition rocks. its helping so much. all the topics that i was having so much trouble with are becoming so much easier. i guess its because this teacher is good. from what ive heard, he was the holy innocent high version of our very own mdm ee. yeah. he's in the 'miracle' class of teachers. those that can bring out a distinction from a barely pass. yeah. so hopefully i receive the magic touch. heh.
on a completely random note: dont you think that the word 'sorry' is used extremely flippantly these days. in just a regular day in school, i hear that word surface countless times. i guess people think that just by saying sorry, it absolves them from taking the blame for what they've done. hmm. nahh- it doesnt work. only use it when you truly mean it.
alrighty. back to being a living being. no more dead me. i wont say that my problems are settled but ive stored them in this overflowing file called:
'KIV for the moment and if it doesnt show the signs im hoping for in the next week then delete forever'
whoa thats a long name. but i guess i decided to do this because of certain things that have happened these few days.
1)apparently, ive been selected for the 'Chong Seak Chan Award'. ahem. sorry to gabriel but... WOOHOO. haha. sorry. okay, dont know why it isnt you. should seriously be. go ask our beloved sir bob. i feel so awkward la, all the other recipients are cca BIGheads. im the only tiny one.
2) my ipod magically fixed itself today. whoaaaa. cool. i couldnt turn it on yesterday, couldnt even charge. but for no reason it suddenly decided that it no longer wanted to go on strike and turned itself on as soon as i stepped into my room after school. ooooo - creepy.
i guess things are taking a turn for the better. or not. but who cares.
so what have we been up to these few days? work study work. ohman i seriously running out of things to blog about. ive had totally no life for a long while. im gonna try to find something more interesting to do this weekend or something.
howw. yongsheng wants to go kayaking next week during the national day hols. so very tempting buttttt i dont think my knowledge is up to scratch. haii. what to do what to do. tough decision. hmmm. i dont know, i was planning on going out to study for like friday and saturday. but on thursday there doesnt seem to be anywhere to go, public holiday. hmmm. aye. i cant study well at home.
I still don't have the reason And you don't have the time And it really makes me wonder If I ever gave a f**k about you
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