oh hello. i practically didnt get anything done today. what a waste.



sundays truly are a bore. ohwait, they're not much different from any other day, except that i dont have to go to school.

to quote mrs elaine goh: 'dont tell me yall have no life?'
answer: yes.

urgh, seriously cant remember the last time i thoroughly enjoyed myself. yeah. oh, actually i can- chma. but that was ages ago, havent even went out for leisure since. its been a month. now im wondering if im still human. the only emotions i remember feeling are sadness, lonliness, anger and guilt. i know its wierd, but somehow i dont really feel happy anymore when i laugh. id like to think its just the stress of exams screwing with my mind, but i think its a little very weird.


someone cancelled on me again today, so i did some night-to-morning studying yesterday. it seriously screwed around with my sleep cycles even more, cos i woke at 12 for lunch, took another nap to roughly 3 then sat around in a daze till 5. and now i feel quite refreshed and alert. how to sleep now? besides, i only managed to go through 1 chapter of chemistry today, took me around 1hour, what with reading in the car on the way to colin's place at jurong.


dinner was cool. some jap restaurant at a certain private club where my uncle uses the driving range. i think its the closest ive come to feeling happy and at ease. colin truly is a joker. haha. yeah, i guess its true that all cat high guys are super lame. he and his humorous stories. ive missed hanging out with my bunch of cousins, its like we've all drifted so far apart as we've grown. i feel like doing some reminiscing:


darren:
used to be the little kid. yeah, now he's in sec2 and in monfort ncc. fast huh. we used to make fun of him for being plump cos of eating too much sweets and stuff. now? what a world of difference.

xiwen:
aye. chicky. lol. i guess shes still the cousin that i have the most contact with, which still isnt a lot. used to spend every saturday down at her house with the rest of the gang. playing cards, listening to music, chatting online, buying sweets and tidbits from the minimart downstairs. those were the days.

charles aka jun:
haha. my best bro. ever since we met in an aunts house when i was ?three?. inseperable at times. i still remember asking my grandma every friday night when i was little.. little-er: 'ah jun ming tian you lai ma?' ( is jun coming tomorrow?) haha. and now- hes going through OCS in the army. whoa. where did the years go? im serious.

derrick:
yeah. mr nice guy. although he was (and still is) 5years older than me. always was super nice to all of us plus helpful to the adults and such. haha. my mum was forever telling me to learn from him and be like him when i grew older. i think i failed though. =/

darrel/colin/ ah zhong:
yeah. the big boys. no matter that they were much much older than us. no matter that we must have seemed super childish to them. they were always there when we (the young ones) needed help or someone to play with. now? darrel and colin are studying in ntu, and zhong is... god knows where. haha. havent seen him in ages. i think hes working.

last but definitely not least.
peiwen aka peewee:
our jiejie (big sis) throughout the years. she was always the one who would look out for us in whatever that we did. when i say 'was', i actually still mean now. cos shes still there for us younger ones when we need her. haha. just last year, went with her and xiwen to wild wild wet, where she had free tickets and she rented the company deluxe suite chalet room. cool huh. thanks for everything. and sorry if we annoy you sometimes.




ooo. this post has gone on long. very long. ahh. about the song. i like fergie. mmm. i like her voice and her style of singing. just love the way she manages to bring in a twinge of latino accent into her songs. what a beautiful voice. haha. shes pretty too of course.







i know i'm not your favorite record
the songs you grow to like never stick at first
so i'm writing you a chorus
and here is your verse