anyone out there who had a strange weekend like me raise your hand! err okay, i cant see the hands anyway. whatever.. it was so contrasting, saturday was so supremely productive and then today i totally frittered it away, couldnt concentrate on anything.

saturday was a day full of exercise. WAIT - before anyone condemns me and nags me to study, hold on. overslept and had to rush to yck to meet biao early in the morning, where i spent some time doing bowel exercises while waiting, HEH. (okay this probably makes pretty disgusting reading, but who cares?) this was followed up with a much needed workout at yck gym, from which im still aching today..the afternoon was definitely the most tiring, exercising my rusty malfunctioning brain in the most productive study session ive had in a long time at home. the most enjoyable part of the day was, unsurprisingly, dinner at chinatown with the family and then meeting tzetian and josh at gardens for supper/dessert. mocha tauhuey and ice3 mudpie! alrighttt, stomach exercise haha. btw, tt is extremely horny and josh attracts gays on facebook - HAHA.

oh and bytheway, its fantasitic to watch arsenal steamroll pompey 4-1, and get stupid thermal physics out of the way all in one night.


theres really nothing to mention about sunday. apart from naomi messaging me early in the morning calling me sweeney... errr. huh? well the rest of the day was spent trying to study, but constantly dozing off in the wonderfully cooling weather, i didnt even get to swim this weekend! rarr..




i listen: Micheal Learns To Rock - Breaking My Heart

I'm on the floor
counting one minute more
No one to break the silence

Staring into the night
all alone but that's alright
It's the feeling deep inside I don't like

There is no excuse my friend
for breaking my heart
breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
Your breaking my heart again

Here in my bed
counting the words you've said
They linger in the shadows

Coming home late at night
drunk again but that's alright
It's the look in your eyes I don't like

There is no excuse my friend
for breaking my heart
breaking my heart again...

saw the juniors having land training today... and my first instinct was to change and jump right into the action and join them at the fitness corner.


dammit. i really miss it so much...

hai. maybe lwin is right and im really getting old. i realised that theres hardly a day that im not feeling the hurt from either one of my old injuries. haha. wrist restricting my gymming, knee and ankle with the running. rarr. then again. the pain reminds me that i was.. ahem AM a canoeist. and its all worth it. kinda.. well i'll say its worth it when i stop aching from yesterday's exercise. haha.

bishanpark run and dinner with ironman and kun was great. the talk afterwards helped me out quite a bit too, i think. i agree that ive been burying the issue aside for so long, but nows not the time. not with prelims at the doorstep and alevels round the corner. still, as yuesheng said, its like plastic, it isnt biodegradable, gotta do something. "you gotta forgive yourself before you think about anything else". dammit.



i listen: New Found Glory - My Friends Over You

two dreams in the past 2 days is a little too much.

no relapse no relapse. i wont allow it.




i listen: There For Tomorrow - Remember When (Used to be used to it)

midnight runs are friggin fantastic! i suppose.. when youre free, and wanna exercise, and want a break from hitting the books, and wanna vent.. yeahh fantastic.

pretty eventful week. celebrated guanming's bday on monday with a cake in class, and with some on his face(; and of course the traditional taupok. i felt kinda bad since he was technically still recovering from his illness.. but hey - you only turn 18 once yea?

thurs was the same for wen and eileen. celebrating birthdays i mean, not taupok eileen. err but of course wen got the treatment. carried out from the middle of cafe to the middle of field, and happily flattened by all the guys. not so happily for him. and then as he struggled in vain, in came the cake. haha. yeah i know, we're not that original with our ideas.. it also marked the first day of night study in school, which sorta rekindled my resolve to stay back in school daily to study, just cos its so much more productive than home. i shall TRY. yeah try. some kind soul pls accompany me. haha.

friday - err. yeah. long day out. and the icecream a**** finally got her sundae treat after tuition. had an almost hour long heart2heart talk with naomi. ive not been so candid in quite a long time. naomi shh.. what was said there stays there, now that i have your secret... can blackmail you. haha.

today, studied the day, hung out the evening at bedok.R with the team. ordered pizza and kfc, and talked with coach and all. but the ending kinda sucked cos i rushed off without eating then found out that i had missed my family dinner and got rather badly grilled for it. dang. the things i go through to hang out with the team, rigghtt? hahaha. nah, im guilty for not hanging out with the team enough recently. sorry all ;/

well. break's over, BACK TO FREAKING STUDYING. or rather, pulling out my hair doing the maths hw...


i listen: Keith Urban - You'll Think Of Me


I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

midnight runs are friggin fantastic! i suppose.. when youre free, and wanna exercise, and want a break from hitting the books, and wanna vent.. yeahh fantastic.

pretty eventful week. celebrated guanming's bday on monday with a cake in class, and with some on his face(; and of course the traditional taupok. i felt kinda bad since he was technically still recovering from his illness.. but hey - you only turn 18 once yea?

thurs was the same for wen and eileen. celebrating birthdays i mean, not taupok eileen. err but of course wen got the treatment. carried out from the middle of cafe to the middle of field, and happily flattened by all the guys. not so happily for him. and then as he struggled in vain, in came the cake. haha. yeah i know, we're not that original with our ideas.. it also marked the first day of night study in school, which sorta rekindled my resolve to stay back in school daily to study, just cos its so much more productive than home. i shall TRY. yeah try. some kind soul pls accompany me. haha.

friday - err. yeah. long day out. and the icecream a**** finally got her sundae treat after tuition. had an almost hour long heart2heart talk with naomi. ive not been so candid in quite a long time. naomi shh.. what was said there stays there, now that i have your secret... can blackmail you. haha.

today, studied the day, hung out the evening at bedok.R with the team. ordered pizza and kfc, and talked with coach and all. but the ending kinda sucked cos i rushed off without eating then found out that i had missed my family dinner and got rather badly grilled for it. dang. the things i go through to hang out with the team, rigghtt? hahaha. nah, im guilty for not hanging out with the team enough recently. sorry all ;/

well. break's over, BACK TO FREAKING STUDYING. or rather, pulling out my hair doing the maths hw...


i listen: Keith Urban - You'll Think Of Me


I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

haha my classmates are uber cool. the past weeks in school have been damn funny. every day, every break all i remember is laughing till my face aches and my stomach hurts. i dont think its healthy to laugh that much after eating. leaving aside the discussions about gaki and noticing the funny stuff that other people do in the cafe, theres still the retarded games of open-numbers. really brightens up my school life.

oh oh. i wanted to mention that i kinda think people are getting a little too paranoid lately. just today i noticed two secondary school boys get chased away from sitting at a void deck by policemen. from what i heard when i walked past, apparently some resident called to complain that 'suspicious characters' were loitering around the block. huh? suspicious in their school uniform? cos they're malay? is that paranoia? is that racism? the resident being just to nosy? either way, thats messed up. like my room. yeah - my room is messed up. by .. me? haha books files bags strewn all over. yup. messed up /;



i listen : McFly -The Heart Never Lies.