chalet. what the hell. how does constant warcraft gaming make it interesting? and the videos we rented were kinda weird too. haha. 'The Nun' is probably the worst horror movie EVER filmed. so obviously a low budget - low quality film. who's gonna be scared of a ghost that looks like Casper's uncles?


had a much better time today running with the joshua and joel. im feeling kinda regretful cos i didnt sign up for the marathon run that they're going for this sunday. what a waste of a good chance to get some badly needed exercise. gymming at joel's isnt that bad, though i'd much rather go to hougang's gym with its better facilities. swimming? pfft, more like soaking in water then sun-tanning. haha. besides, we got chased out of the pool cos we werent in proper attire. TSK.




SOMEbody. wanted me to go out then should have messaged or called earlier la... like 15mins even, cos joel's maid just started preparing lunch. i'll try to make it up to you next time, if you ever need an 'escort' again.




Three Doors Down- Let Me Go

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

and you me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know who I am
and you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know me

AIDS.
yes.
A-I-D-S

arent those just the 4 letters that patients and families never want to hear when they go for a check up at the hospital? and yet, its a threat thats all too real in society today and i really feel that more people should be aware of it.

Definition

AIDS (Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome) is the final and most serious stage of HIV disease, which causes severe damage to the immune system.

According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, AIDS begins when a person with HIV infection has a CD4 cell count below 200. CD4 cells are also called "T-cells" or "helper cells"; they are a type of immune cell. AIDS is also defined by numerous opportunistic infections and cancers that occur in the presence of HIV infection.

yeah. as i said, im pretty sure that all of us know, recognise, and fear AIDS, but just how accurate is our knowledge about the deadly disease? i mean, we all know that fatality is a very real threat with AIDS, but how many actually clearly know the risks and causes involved. in this case, ignorance is NOT bliss. its essential that people know what to and not to do to keep themselves not to put themselves at risk.

and that brings me to my second point, the unfortunate people who have already contracted HIV / AIDS. you hear stories about how families have been torn apart because of the disease. and no no, its not like their family members were taken by the disease or anything, but rather they feel ashamed of the sick, and thus refuse to come into contact with them. absolutely ridiculous and absurd if you ask me. AIDS / HIV is an illness, a condition, and instead of helping or trying to help, we're doing the reverse and abandoning them in their time of need. sure speaks volumes about the selfish mentality of our society today.

besides, i guess the greatest reason for such behavior is still down to not understanding the true nature of HIV/AIDS. there is the common belief, fueled by countless depictions in drama serials, that HIV / AIDS is solely the result of frivolous sexual habits and thus says something nasty about the morals of the person who contracts it. however, this is not necessarily the case. think blood transfusions and mother to child hereditary transfer, are we really going to condemn all these people for being unlucky?



http://www.healthline.com/adamcontent/aids?utm_medium=ask&utm_source=smart&utm_campaign=article&utm_term=AIDS&ask_return=AIDS

check out this site for insightful information regarding HIV/AIDS.




ps: i hope that yall don't expect me to become some sort of activist just cos ive done this write up, its kinda as a favour for a friend who's trying to spread the word about the spreading terror of HIV / AIDS. a darned noble deed if you ask me. do try and help too, thanks all.

BBMAK
"Ghost Of You And Me"

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me



yeah. its a little old i guess. but yall know me, i like old songs. crudely, you could could say that im living in the past, but i like to think that its cos im sentimental. HAHA.

B-O-R-E-D
yea. bored. thats how im feeling. at this moment, im half-watching 'King Kong' for like the gazillionth time on HBO. at least im going kayaking tomorrow, and its gonna let me soak up the sun or something. ( i swear ive been turning whiter ever since i stopped going for ncc trainings)




look at the nice blue bottle. look. stare at it. slowly feel yourself getting hypnotized. alright, dont. its not very nice anyway. im not even sure how i got it. i bet its some $1.99 shop or something. just look at the word, 'HAOOIXIAOZ'. i kinda think it sounds like some twit version of hanyupinying, though im not sure what word its trying to spell.

water bottle. water. bottle. yeah, im kinda swamped with all sorts of bottles at home. i dont really remember when i started accumulating so many bottles actually. i was looking into my kitchen cupboard today (for food of course), and i realised that i have aprox 8 bottles that ive never used, and thats including of those useless metal bottles that people always give as souvenirs. (oh and by the way, i didnt find food. =( awwwww! hahaha! loser cupboard)




red's a nice colour. going with black, wonderful. haha. nice ball nice ball. kinda burned a $14 dollar hole in my wallet though. one tiny little ball costs $14, whoa. real good quality to play with though. i actually was gonna buy the white one, buttttt KEVIN wanted it too, so i 'decided' that a red ball would be more 'outstanding' and 'unique'. hahaha. its nice though.




and i thought these hols were gonna be fun. all ive felt so far is boredom boredom and more boredom. is it possible to be sick of slacking already.





One Republic - Apologise

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground
I'm hearin' what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around and say:

That it's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new
Yeah
I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground

there. ive just done that pae thing. sealed my fate... sorta.

im guessing/ hoping that 9-2 is enough to get into SA (science) cos my other choices were SA (arts), then (wait for it...) VJ (science) , VJ (arts) (HAHA! playing with the system) , CJ (science) - CJ (arts).


oh, bought my canvas shoes today. just a simple black pair, not much cash available you see, i might go buy another nicer pair when i get more money. MAY.


its not easy to like someone, but it sure is a hell lot harder to stop liking someone. sometimes, trying your best isnt enough. the only lucky thing about this whole mess is that i dont get to see you, and im hoping it stays that way.

firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL!!! (edited: tsk)

alright. nothing much going on actually. sajc open house yesterday, went over to look around (actually went more to take the shoebag). looked at some of the activities over there. canoeing? hockey? im really quite undecided on this issue.

canoeing really interests me but 4 trainings in week, dont know if my slackiness can survive that. besides, sure no chance to win anything with sajc. mmm. dont know la. hockey also seems quite fun.


joined kevin and leon at orchard where kevin's mum gave us a ride to zouk to take a look at the flea market. mm. lots and lots of stuff, and people. on the whole, found it quite boring, should be much more attractive for girls i think, since the majority of goods there are for females.

didnt buy anything! ee. then raining so couldnt play soccer somemore, had to come home. no nice shoes, no nice bag, no nice... stuff? i think im gonna go to queensway then beach road this week to browse. so far ive only managed to get my goggles, and i havent even used them yet. aye. pity poor me, cant even find a reasonably priced table lamp.


The All American Rejects - Swing Swing

Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new

[Chorus]
(Swing) Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again

Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)

(Swing) Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again

okay, today's post shall be a short one:

mmm. i wonder who those cute little kiddos are? hahaha.

random note: i really want a pair of canvas shoes! where to buy?

Tribute to Catholic High School.

now that the Os are well and truly over, and ive had a couple of days to settle down from its immediate aftereffects, i think i should give credit where its due, and write a piece giving thanks to the school for the last 4years.

4 years may not seem like a long time, but in truth, these last 4 ive spent in CHS has been like an eternity for me. truth be told, this is my third draft attempting to type this post out. the previous times ive tried to do it, ive either felt that i didnt do the last 4years of my life credit by writing too brief a post, or id written so long and repetitive a post that id be boring everybody to death. so i guess im just gonna try my and hope for the best this time.

secondary one was a year to remember, new school, new teachers, new schoolmates, new everything. its funny how i can still remember walking into the school early on the first day and realising that i had no idea where i was headed, and that i was totally lost, the sudden change in environment really had me at a loss. to make things worse, much of the school was still under renovation and all boarded up. anyway, the main thing about this year was BURST:

• BURST (Basic Uniform-group Robust School-based Training) programme, which introduces team building, basic campcraft, first aid and foot drill for all Sec. 1's.

yeah, there you have it. sometimes when i get bored and start thinking about random stuff, i like to think that this was the defining period in my life thus far. which sec1 likes being called back to school every saturday morning for 10 weeks to do the above? but then, in some sick and twisted way, i kinda felt more at ease with the school because of the friendships i built with my classmates back then. besides, i guess it was because of my experiences of drilling and pt in BURST that i ended up with chsncc, and its something i'll always remember, cherish and never regret. (yeah, i know. its sick. i must have some weird penchant for punishment)


secondary two. another memorable year. i know people look back and blame the introduction of the tablet pc for our failures and problems. but i'll try to see beyond that and bring back the better memories. sec2 adventure camp at jalan bathera , it was alright, really widened my horizons regarding the activities that are available. sparked my liking for kayaking. besides, who can forget the nick.kang incident during the campfire. to my knowledge, its still being talked about today. on another note, there was always that hellish OAL training camp at the end of the year.


after being at the bottom, isnt it always the greatest feeling when you rise up and take control? well, thats what secondary three was all about, assuming responsibility.

'with great power comes great responsibility'

hahaha. i guess so. anyway, its a nice feeling, feels good to have be on top instead of continuously being at th receiving end. then again, if you really take a look at it, its just like going from a teeny tiny fish in a small pond, to being a medium sized fish in the ocean, cos now as a leader, you deal with the teachers. well, its all about perception. fun though.


secondary four. if the first three years felt like an eternity,i guess i would describe this last year as a wicked whirlwind. look at it this way, at the beginning of the year, you start the countdown to stepping down from your cca and other responsibilities. whoosh, suddenly thats over and done with. next, you start the frantic studying for prelims, then omg, you wonder: 'when the hell did all three prelims pass?' AND all the the while, you're keeping one eye on the calender as the major countdown ensues, and the Os come closer day by day. then, you end up like me, sitting here typing stuff and wondering how it all went past so quickly. well, thats secondary 4 life for you.


Outdoor Adventure Leaders (OAL)
well, perhaps the best thing that ever happened to me in my 4years in Catholic High School (apart from ncc of course). lets see, try to wrap this around your head for a moment, take the most zany characters from the five uniformed groups, throw in a couple of equally crazy IT guys from imedia, there you have it, a bonafide volatile mix, all combustible and ready to explode.

Scouts: high energy, high work-ethic, SUPER high fun levels,
just take a look at the gayness of toonee, the 'ahem'ness of hanxun, and charisma of joshua aka kun.
NCC (Land): gabriel the garang muscle man, jacky the breakdancer/portable jukebox/beatbox, derek the 'lets sit up the whole night staring at the stars at changi' guy. haha. yeah.
NCC (Air): aric chia the little mischief master. weilang our personal horse.
NPCC: darius the ..? kumweng the ...? troy the soccer guy? haha. okay
last but not least,
SJAB: zhian the poor medic. haha. MEDIC!!!

alright, as you might have seen, i ran out of descriptions, and those are but a few of the interesting people in OALs.
i dont know about the others, but the days spent training at bathera changed me in a way i cant describe. by far the most painful camp, and the most annoying, seeing that millions of mozzies come out at night for feasting. and thats not mentioning the 8-9? hour kayaking without sunblock (our fault) and the subsequent sunburns. lets just say, practicing belaying in long pants after getting badly sunburned is not something i look forward to doing again anytime soon.





im gonna conclude here. catholic high has been a home to me these past 4 years. calling it a second home just wouldnt feel right cos i sometimes feel more at home there then at home. its more than done its job as a school. schools providing education is one thing, providing purpose and a sense of belonging is another. its moulded and crafted me into what, and who, i am today, and for that i will always be thankful.





heres to cathigh.

******pictures provided by mam chow.

soccer.
some older guys showed up.
some victor guy pissed people off with rough play.
we almost got into a fight with those people.
some other big dude stamped on my toe and it started to bleed.
it was hot.
i came home.
i dont want to talk about it.


i digress. let me entertain myself by talking a little about the Reading vs Arsenal match that i watched this morning. possibly the most boring and time wasting match ive watched in quite a while. i dont even know why i bothered waking up at 4 to watch. tsk. sure, arsenal won 1-3, but it looked like the players were just going through the motions- practically walking about. no excitement man. oh and there was this point where fabregas did some super duper stupidly obvious two-handed pull on some reading player, getting himself a yellow card and the subsequent suspension. at the time, i was kinda pissed cos he'd miss the next game against wigan. but then, after looking back at it, its kinda smart actually, it clears his slate of the previous 4 yellow cards and removes the risk of being suspended for more taxing and challenging matches coming up. damm smart can. therefore, the point of this long boring seemingly pointless paragraph is that arsenal players are smart.


anyway, today, i undertook operation packing/clearing phase 2. cleaned out the wardrobe. as a result:




just look at how many sets of clothes i had to clear cos i dont wear them. tsk tsk tsk. moral of the story, people should never buy me clothes for presents and such, cos the odds that i wont ever wear those clothes is super high.

oh and looking into the terrible mess that was in my wardrobe, i found so much stuff from my NCC and OAL days. hmm. now what am i going to do with a whoe box full of ncc badges, or chs metal buttons and rings, or 2 whole tubes of sunblock, or green army camo, or 2 mess tins, or 2 metal disposable stoves, or army issue insect repellant? holy crap, the worst was when i found such a huge stash of ziploc bags and black trash bags from camping preparations. now now, what am i going to do with so much stuff.

hmm, does anyone have this song:

Paramore- CrushCrushCrush


mind sending it to me?



on another note, since the people around me (ahem-ahem, you know who you are) seem so obsessed with jojo at this point of time:





yea sorry theres only one but my others cant seem to upload.

4 years of secondary education.
for
4 weeks of papers.

well. its over.

i dont seem happy you say. well lets just take a look,
this is my Olevel entry proof:




byebye! just so you know. i would have burned several holes in it, just that i cant find my lighter. (damm! im pretty sure ive got a lighter lying around my room from my smoking ahem ahem CAMPING days)


alright. normally i would do some post-exam post, like giving my opinions on the papers. however, this time's gonna be different, not cos i dont want to, but cos the exams spanned 4weeks and my super short term memory cant remember much. all i know is that during that exam period, i was either sleeping or eating or studying or examing. yupp. lots of library time, some sessions at my house, some at joel's house. yea, i think i hung out with joel alot during this time, morning bus to j8. breakfast at macs. studying together at school library. exam. then sometimes meeting up at night to go through work like history and ss. urgh, just thinking about studying makes me tired. thank heavens its all over.


mmm. packing my room... ... clearing rubbish (books/notes). yepp and rearranged stuff. and now my room's so UBERspacious. like some huge empty spot in the centre with room to... lie down? hahaha. ive yet to figure out what to do with the extra room actually.


errrr. what else is there to talk about? dont feel like talking about the past 4years just yet...

SOCCER! yepp. soccer tomorrow at iggy's again. yay, we really ought to be doing these sort of activities more often. i need to get out and about more, though my eye infection is so pissing annoying. doesnt matter. dont bother about me.

SWIMMING! uhuh. swimming's a really good way to keep/get fit while having fun. i think i was fittest when i was swimming regularly. gotta get back to that habit. now i need those goggles that have degrees so that i wont be a blind bat.

JOBS! yes i need a job. im checking a few out at the moment but i guess the last resort is to ask aunt anna for the fulltime office one =/ . thats so gonna eat up alot of my time. nevermind, try to find others first.

KAYAKING! mmm. i really really want to go take 2star by the end of the hols. now, everythings on hold cos im waiting to see if joel/ivan/yuesheng/andy are gonna take 1star. if they are then i'll go for 2star with them after. if not, organise with xuanyi and kevin?

GYM! mmm. hougang? bishan? ivans condo? joels condo? i dont know which to go to. condo gyms arent as equipped and those at the stadiums. never tried hougang's before, heard that its quite large. bishan? nah, dont think so, im quite sick of bishan already. gym buddy? hahaha.


on and on and on and on.... im just random posting here cos im waiting for the reading vs arsenal match to come on at 0355 and i dont feel like sleeping yet. besides, i dont know what i should post about. hmm. i seem to remember promising iggy to post more songs so that he can be lazy and listen from here. 2 songs daily for awhile ought to keep him occupied.











one of these days im gonna post a few songs which i find so horrendous that i dont even know why i have them in my comp. haha. okay, not so bad, but songs that i dont like.



till then, have fun! and to those bio students who still have a paper tomorrow, GOOD LUCK!

heres a tip for anyone whos thinking of joining the swissotel vertical marathon without prior training: dont.

uhuh. im serious. i mean, whats the point of joining these sorts of things if you dont want to have a nice timing right? and well sure its not impossible to complete the 73 floors without training, but youd probably end up with a crappy timing like mine : 13mins 21s. honestly, though i know i didnt prepare for this at all, im really quite disappointed.

lets look at it:
1336 steps
73 floors
??? m

2005: 12mins 36s
2006: 12mins 49s
2007: 13mins 21s

seeeee. granted in 2005 there wasnt the extra 80m that we now have to walk/run before climbing up the stairs, im still getting slower and slower. i remember i used to run like 30 floors then start walking. today, i barely made 15. tsk. intense training ahead.


okay. mmm. new blogskin. Os almost over. preparing for serious room clearing tomorrow. i need new stuff.

i want:
a table lamp
new headphones
new swimming goggles
clothes
protein powder (edwin!!!)
soccer ball
ball pump
shoes
bag

uhuh. much to buy, not much money left. need a job people. im gonna check a few out. hoping to get one by the end of next week latest.

hey hey people. im back a few days early.

alright. ive been looking around the net to see if i can find any new skin that i could use.


well so heres i few ive looked at. please take a look at them and drop me a tag and let me know which one you think i should use next, thanks:


http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=88070&action=Preview
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=94426&action=Preview
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=87576&action=Preview
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=92357&action=Preview


mm. yea. thats about it guess. all kinda dark cos i dont really like too bright colours. HAH.