thursday = vesak day = a waste.

instead of spending it fruitfully by either relaxing by waking late and going out to enjoy, or doing proper study and work. i wasted it.

woke at 8plus. tsk. what the hell. too early for the hols.
spent the whole day reading chemistryand physics textbooks cos i apparently cant remember much.

oh nvm. i think the movies on were kinda good. i remembered another show thats cool/sweet- '50 first dates'. who would have the patience to keep winning the girl's heart every morning, just to lose it the very next day? not many. honestly, i wish i could be like him. hahaha. furthermore, his life seems so carefree that he can devote so much time to her. cool huh.

and now- listening to music while i attempt to pack my file, which has soooo much stuff in it i swear i could get lost inside. hmm. dont know where to put all the papers.


okay, i feel as if a load has been lifted off my shoulders. makes me feel sort of empty but well, i guess it had to be done. still think it might not be the right choice on my part but im gonna put it behind me and look to the future.

now now: 6/7 points for Olevels!!! and then i'll choose where to go...

Pirates of the Carribean 3

yup. despite so many people trying to dissuade me from watching the show. i did it, because of some good advice from some nice person. thanks! havent talked to you properly in such a long time. tsk. i guess you're busy.

anyway. the movie itself was kinda good, although i was still quite blur because i missed out on the 2nd movie. something about fighting with the Flying Dutchman. haha. anyway, despite the plot, the graphics were really good, and some of the scenes rather funny. shant go into details or else everyone would be bored to death, kinda long.

well, before that, went over to iggy's house to play some soccer. didnt get much done there actually, so out of shape at the moment plus the heat was... urgh. well, perspired alot though, plus got 2 nice little blisters which hurt like hell. haha. you could say the highlight of the day was derek and his 'out-of-positioned cramping toe'.


knowing how such things work, i bet 'Harry Potter- Order of the Phoenix' and 'Shrek 3' will must likely come out during this hols. haii. i wanna watch but its kinda so rushed already. how la.

damn i feel very stupid and wrong la. everything i say anything it seems to be wrong and then i regret it instantly.

haii. cant seem to get rid of the habit. hope it doesnt screw me up. ive really got to watch what i say from now on.

Monday 280507
Chinese Os. well. immediately after the paper, i was like: 'OMG. DIE. howhowhowhowhowhow.'
umm. very nervous yea? im getting really high strung, either feeling like being emo or being hyper nowdays. well. after talking to teeleng regarding mr yong's review of the paper, i think it that i should do alright at least. the only worry now is the stupid thing i did with my paper1. tsk. damn retarded. well hope the Olevel markers are kind this year.

apart from that, a rather good day. funny shit. went to the gym with zhishen and met this GAY- or rather kinda sissy guy. haha. and the scary bit was he kept smiling in our direction, hopefully not at us la. then we saw these 2 RI guys who were the funniest people everr.

RI guy 1 : eh. im very fit now alright. ive been training. (sits down at the machine)
RI guy 2: (looks at the weights) waa! so strong ah you. so much weight.
RI guy 1: uhuh. (straining his arms ALOT)

well, i was feeling kaypo so i went over to look after they left. the weight read: 27KG. HAAAAAAAH. okay, i feel abit bad but that really wasnt heavy. ahem, i saw primary school kids doing 23Kg alright. haha. funny.

Ultimate Loser Update: i finally found out that "Whatever" and "Anything" arent new drink flavours. haha. just some random drink in the can. haha. interesting.

the funniness didnt end there. i was walking to bishan bus interchange, behind these 2 primary school boys eating mac ice-creams, when one of them gestured wildly at his friend and caused the scoop of ice cream to FLY off the cone. haha. he was standing there stunned, just holding the cone la. i felt kinda bad for laughing so i pretended to be coughing then walked quickly away.

ooh. while walking on the overhead bridge home, i noticed this huge crow on the streetlamp just above my head so i was thinking: 'better not walk underneath it, dont wanna get hit by birdshit.' annnnd. after altering my path, this guy walked underneath and GOT HIT. hahaha. damn funny la. everything seemed especially funny. haha. i dont know why either.

okay. less than 24 hours to crunch time for CL Os. damn- the closer it comes the more out of touch i feel. getting easily distracted i guess.

Monday 280507
CL Os. gonna go to school early. aye, be crazy and go there at normal school day time i guess. hope i dont screw it up. anything but an A1 would be so much of a disappointment after all that has been done to help us. im getting the butterflies just thinking about it.

well. to make up for last week, shall head over to the gym for a workout. lazing aroung eating sleeping and studying has made me feel fat. urgh. disgusting la.

Tuesday 290507
hmm. doesnt seem to be a break from school at all. EL prelim oral this time round. err, shouldnt have any problems since its english. haha. at least i SPEAK english at home, not like chinese (yucks). after that i think i'll head home to SLEEP. yeah. like some pig that only eats and sleeps.

Wednesday 300507
not sure if we've confirmed it but i guess we'll be waiting for zhishen to finish up his prelim oral before catching "Pirates Of The Carribean" at J8. anyone who's interested is welcome i guess. just tell me or something.

Thursday 310507
another one of those not yet confirmed events thanks to the CL Os. err. hoping to head over to iggy's house in the morning for a long awaited soccer-court game. recently i realised that i havent touched a soccer ball in ages. the last time i actually played soccer could be... well i dont know. cant remember at all. haha. should be fun if the plan actually goes through.



ahhh. what a 'fun-filled' week. hopefully the exam goes according to plan. and then i can relatively relax for the rest of the week without feeling all sick and guilty inside. till friday i guess.

wish us luck.

what a looong week. and chinese Os are coming in just a few days time!!! hope i dont choke and screw up my essay on that day. urgh. haha.

anyway. imagine this sort of preparation:
0630-0700: arrive at school (reads through the chinese model essays)
0700-0800: chinese extra lessons
0800-0940: regular lessons
0940-1000: recess (which means stay in class to read notes)
1000-1200: chinese mock test (paper 1 and paper 2 on alternate days)
1200-1340/1430: regular lessons
1430: lunch
afterwards: stay back in class to do work

HAI. and it all boils down to next monday. tsk tsk tsk. i better do well.

targets:
40+++ / 50 for essay
15+++ / 20 for letter writing
50+++/ 70 for paper 2

4-5. LETS NOT LET MR YONG / OURSELVES DOWN. A1s FOR EVERYONE!

Tuesday 220507
studying with iggy and yuesheng after school was a laugh. haha. i cant believe how yuesheng can keep singing (torturing our ears) without getting tired. haha. almost destroyed my ipod with his fickle mindedness. haha. ive found another lame person to make life more interesting la. haha. yuesheng couldnt find his way home after getting off the 58 with me. even made me walk him home like some little kid. tsk. troublesome. haha.

oh btw- he's still listening to 'how to save a life'. ITS BEEN 4 DAYS.

Wednesday 230507
i swear that assemblies are getting more boring. and... well, stupid. firstly, no one really wants to know about projects by ANYONE in the school. and now their doing by departments - chinese;english;science etc. haha. wouldnt it be better to bring back the more interesting stuff from previous years like the percussion groups or the bands? more informative. not to mention there are some TEACHERS sleeping nowdays, haha. still can lecture us about not paying attention... nvm.

Friday 240507
pure inspiration. okay- no real lessons because of the hmt prelims but there was the final round up for chinese intensive training. well, saw the programme about Lena Maria Johansson for only like the 5th time. haha. its really inspiring how she overcame her disability to be so happy and blissful, but PLEASE NO MORE, haha watched too many times already. okay. according to mr yong, those in his class should all already be at the distinction if not A1 standard. cool. well i just hope that i dont have a writers block on that day- kinda counting on my baozhangbaodao to score.

is it possible to wish myself good luck? hope i can anyway. haha. i'll need it.

180507 Friday
ms tan gave us the talk about DPA and DSA today. haha. as if i have anything to use for DSA.

'excuse me, i would like to apply for DSA to your school. hmm, what qualitites do i have? OH- i can polish boots, do drills, give drills, shout, and do pt! do consider me.' ohmy, what a convincing applicant i would be.

oral was a fiasco. the teacher took so long to come. ahh, well at least i finished my english homework while waiting. oh.. okay, not exactly a fiasco, mdm yuling said that i was 'buchuo' (not bad)! haha. my chinese is not bad? LIAR.

xuanyi and albert came over to meet up before heading to tawan's celebration. ohoh. i realise that i cannot compare with xuanyi in lameness. he beats me hands down. lameness was the relief for boredom.

xuanyi: im not happy, i wanna leave
me: okay, (points to lift), go ahead
xuanyi: huh? you see-lift? (tugs at his sleeve)
me: yup i do. branches and grass too.

haha. we're all crappy and lame people, bear with us.

tawan's house is scary. some super duper dark and eerie looking condominium, with narrow corridors and pitch dark staircases that look like a scene out of some horror movie. eek. anyway, the celebration was at the badminton? sepak tekraw? court behind the condo. umm. played some games, ate a little, sat around and just talked to the people. i realised that i havent had the chance to have a proper chat with derek for a long long time. sorry bro.

hmm. i would like to apologise with tawan for having to leave early. MY FAULT.

anyway, thing to note, be careful when wearing slippers to such an event. hmm. someone kicked my toe so hard. hurt the whole journey home. upon returning home, i found a long cut just under the nail, OOZING blood. yuck... and ouch.


190507 Saturday
gym make up. nothing to talk about. and woohoo- i finally understand and can do relative velocity properly. yea i know, im the ultimate laggert. haha. its alright, at least im improving.

tuition was interesting. now it seems that almost everyone knows about albert's secret. hoho. too bad for you man. shikai was acting particularly gay today, kept trying to touch aaron on the false pretence of tickling him. eeyer. scary.

haha.felicia is sneaky too. tsk tsk. if you're reading this: just help buy the ticket from me laaa. half price! then you can go with ------. haha. i'll even help you ask him! pls okay? msPINK is the best right?




cold;
5.
not affectionate, cordial, or friendly; unresponsive:

yea, this is for you. is it something i did? why have you suddenly become so cold? i dont understand. its not a nice feeling to be on the receiving end. if you want me to just leave you alone i can do it. just say the word.

ahh... ive been having some posting problems recently. apparently it only affects singnet users in singapore. tsk. thankfully i found a temporary solution from a forum thread.

okay- these few days have been... odd.

FRIDAY 110507
im proud (well.. kinda) to announce that i now lift a WHOPPING 86kg of weights with my legs. hmm. kinda pointless i guess but well i feel its sort of an achievement for me.

SATURDAY 120507
wilson; yea, THE wilson; yupp- the one and only THONGS; invited a bunch of us to mediacorp to be the audience for campus superstar- not bad huh. met up with edwin, liam and junlong for lunch at j8. well.. edwin wanted to avoid SOME people so we took the mrt to amk and had kfc there. OH- me being the UBERloser that i am, i only JUST realise that kfc melts is extremely nice. haha. shared 1 set with junlong. i still remember that we were so lame that we were arguing over who to choose which pieces of chicken to eat, so that we could blame the other if we got a icky piece. umm, tawan joined us at amk hub then we proceeded to mediacorp's ultra ulu filming hq.

according to the tickets, we were supposed to be seated 15mins before the filming began at 1430, BUT, because of some spastic looking person's lousy decisions, we boarded the bus AT roughly 1430. ahem, we reached mediacorp at 3plus i guess? oh, i better get tawan to buy me medicated oil since i carried him up the hill to mediacorp on my back. heh.

for some wierd reason, everyone who arrived at 1415 was till waiting to go into the studio- they hadnt opened the doors. anyway, the filming was very boring, for every 15mins worth of actual programme we see on tv, they actually took about 45mins to film. well one other thing i found out is that the actors and actresses DO actually look at cool in person as they do on screen. oh and btw- fiona xie is drop dead gorgeous! haha. okay, she is so darn pretty la. but i realised that she is kinda short? ahh. kept acting cute. ahem ahem, like some other people.

now i know why wilson has been linked to so many of the other contestants. he couldnt seem to keep his attention away from this certain girl. tsk tsk. bad wilson, you'd better not have any funny ideas or christaine will slaughter you. haha.

ahh. nothing much after that. went to boonkeng to get my tuition worksheet from felicia. had a really refreshing talk with her. really got quite a lot of my chest that time. thanks ms pink! you're great indeed. remember to get 'youknowwho' to do 'youknowwhat' alright? haha. and dont worry, i'll try to work my stuff out, if it doesnt go well- hmm, nothing i can do too i guess.

SUNDAY 130507
late morning, went to do work with edwin at bishan library. eeyerr- edwin was late la, and caused me to do work alone for more than an hour. aye, at least i completed most of my physics ws. i never would've been able to do that at home. i guess i'll have to always go out to do work, MUST MUST MUST finish all my work in school everyday already.

bought tawan's birthday gift! well i think it looks nice. besides, it gave me good ideas of birthday presents for other people in future. good decision.



ive been so hooked on this version of this song these few days. i think 'A Walk to Remember' is the sweetest show ive ever seen. total display of true love. we should all try to learn from it.

just cos i smile or laugh alot doesnt mean theres nothing wrong with me. i doubt any of yall would understand anyway so i'll just keep it to myself.

urgh. being sick sucks.

no strength to get out of bed, no energy to anything, cant read, cant watch tv, cant eat, bored to death. someone just kill me la- itd be an improvement.

haha. mugging... nono... studying... nono... crapping with terence today at the library was fun.

i reached the library at 0950, 10mins before it opened, hoping to get a seat at the tables. WELL- didnt happen. the moment the doors opened, the crowd of people RAN (yes, you saw correctly- RAN) into the place to book tables. HUH. so stupid la. anyway, i took 2 tiny couches to start doing work. only completed one yingyongwen and 2 chapters of chem revision before my back started to hurt cos i had to bend into my lap to write. TSK. so we left.

well, heres where the extremely idiotness began. terence brought me up to have a look at the rest of the library, since im too loser to have gone up AT all. haha. took the lift up to the 15 story and went all the way down to b1. haha. felt a bit like those amusement park rides. a little weightlessness. haha. loser THRILLS. OH- i think i shall bring my tablet to do work there next time, there are like 3-4 levels of EMPTY study areas which you can only use laptops to study. NO PEOPLE = cool. besides, i can stay there till 9pm!!! cheers.

bras basah was next. we honestly hit every second hand bookstore in the place, and i got myself to very respectable Olevels TYS. one amaths and another physics. seems rather good. all for $13- thats like the price of 1 new book. yayy. umm. bought some exercise stuff while looking for dumbbells for terence. so expensive- a pair for $48? AND my dad bought them for my birthday! YAYY. thanks so much. abit late i know. hhaa. OH OH OH. bought the skipping rope for *AHEM*. (you better be grateful- haha)

dhoby ghaut... walked around and found really good bargain for weights. well... i dont need that set now but i shall buy them after i outgrow my current 5kg ones. yupp. nothing much else i guess except for that encounter with the attitude case of a cashier and long johns. SO RUDE. haha. dont care la. i got all that i wanted today. CHEERS.

yeah well, ive been listening to my mp3 for hours while travelling and studying, and found another old nice song. heres my favourite part from 'Every Little Thing You Do' by Westlife:

Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do

ahh... ive got a new addiction. haha. the gym is my new hangout. i feel so much more alert nowadays thanks to the weekly exercises there. woohoo. at least i have something to look forward to come every friday.

ooh. i saw something rather creepy today. went out to the coffee shops near my house to buy dinner at 7+++, was waiting for the food at this rather ulu block when i saw this little kid (wearing pri school/ kindergarden uniform) running around at the grass patch opposite. he then waved in my direction like he saw someone he knew and started to run over. the last thing i saw was him stepping off the curb as he ran across the road. at that moment i looked over my shoulder to see who he was waving at. turning back, the boy was nowhere to be seen. furthermore, one of those metal posts on the road divider was shaking wildly, like something had been tugging on it...

perhaps that young boy ran very fast and went around the corner. or maybe.... URGH- i seriously dont wanna think that i saw something 'unclean'. scary thought.

back to studying at library tmr, i guess i'll do that every weekend from now on. MUST SCORE FOR PRELIMS!

ayee... what on earth happened. ive learnt my lesson i tell you. ive been so complacent and now im being punished for it. emaths.. annoying emaths- i practically worked my fingers to the bones doing practices over and over agin for the paper. and.... i was so overconfident that i would be able to do vectors and transformation that i did everything except those chapters. hmmm. what happened then? these 2 chapters sneaked behind me and bit me on my ass. now my precious a1 is gone with the wind and im left trying to cling on to an a2. TSK. i wont let this happen again.

let me set my schedule NOW:

monday- thursday: erm... homework and some daily revision i guess.
friday: YAYY. gym! haha. and... homework.
saturday: hmm.. i think i'll just slack apart from tuition.
sunday: go out to study? i dont know.

nvm. i'll share something less dreary and not about my loser life. hah. lessons today were fun. im sure kevin will agree that english was cool. haha. well, iggy sent 'msgs' to a select group of 6 of kevin's friends. very 'interesting' replies from some of them too.

quote: 'erm. i just wanna concentrate on my studies' HAH. i wonder what the msgs were huh.

oh oh oh. im going retro again. haha. i watched american idol yesterday and i heard so many bon jovi songs. and well i remembered how good this one sounds: