Sunday, December 31, 2006

well im sad:
BYE BYE '06

what a year this has been. it seemed like just a short while ago that i got into 3-5 and only knew a handful of the people. over the course of this year, i guess i can say that this class has its own perks and quirks. and ive grown so attached to this class set-up.

largely thanks to NCC, ive got to say that this year has been like a really steep learning curve for me. im guessing that what ive done this year will be the most i'll be doing for the school. i cant believe that soon i'll be sec4 and frantically mugging to pull up my horrible grades. eeeyer.

in this year of highs and lows, i think ive come out so much more than what i was at the beginning. i believe that i have to thank numerous parties for this change in me:

NCC
my dear CCA for these past 3 years, i truly owe so much to NCC. over this past year, it has been a great source of inspiration, support and drive. the leadership opportunities that i received were oh-so helpful in making me accept greater responsibilities.
annual camp- the very first camp we organised after taking over the unit. yeah, we made some mistakes, we arent perfect, but it let me see how we could function under the severe lack of sleep and how to counter unexpected changes in plans.
spec course- out first true camp at NCChq, well whats there to say, a true confidence booster. fostered new friendships- hopefully they can last yeah?
senior spec course- met up with some old friends, a rather new experience. nothing much to report on
obs-the true learning experience in the whole year. honestly i learnt so much more about myself. the friends and the experiences that i encountered there will stay with me always.

OAL
really honoured to be included in the bunch of cool guys. the times we spent interacting with those new sec1 classes, kayaking in the pouring rain to help the sec2s. and especially those who were at the oal camp in the new changi campsite. hahaha.

3-5'06
well what can i say about you guys, you've been such a nice bunch to be around. truly a great class to be in. hopefully we can maintain this and all do well in the coming year.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

when was the last time you tried something for the first time? today, i went with a sad sad person who'd never tried carl's junior before, and returned after a movie and a rather late lunch.

reached city hall mrt wayyy early and decided to go scout ahead since we didnt know how to go to the place. found it and bought tickets to the noon show of Death Note 2. after meeting up, walked around to kill time but somebody couldnt find the atm machine. tsk tsk. and the lousy shop attendant still gave us the wrong information.

anyway- i waited till the movie started before giving the present. haha. i like being annoying that way. TRALALA. oh and thanks so much for the tiny bald headed toy and the chain. im sure ill have so much fun munching on the tiny packets of MnMs.

the movie itself was rather good. however, didnt find the plot as nice as Death Note. i guess that once you more or less know the plot, it kills the movie. same for LOTR and HP.

the movie ended just before 3. lunch at Carls Junior was really filling. this kind of food shouldnt be eaten too often yeah. especially when you're SICK. eeyer. while eating this annoying cuteprata kept lying. your nose is gonna grow longer and longer.

all in all, the only thing that wasnt picture perfect today was that i was a teensy tiny bit late for tuition. luckily for me the teacher was still getting the lesson papers from the counter and hadnt started teaching. i found this really good deal for the nokia 5300 phone in the New Paper! i sign a 2year deal and trade in my 6260, then can get for free! but its starhub, and i dont like their student plan, no free incoming... =/

Friday, December 29, 2006

Thursday
peiwen's company booked a chalet room at Aranda Country Club and in the end, no one could make it. so she asked me, xiwen and my sis to go down to wild wild wet cos she had 4 free tickets.

so met up with them late morning and took a bus all the way to pasir ris. lunch was at white sands then we went to check in at the chalet. while checking in, i stole a look at the booking prices- $350 PER NIGHT during holidays!!!! and peiwen told me that her company can book for $50 per night once a year! oh yeah, we went to the room and ITS BLOODY HUGE- supposed to be some executive suite.

changed and went down to wild wild wet. i think the rain was more of a help than a hindrance as most of the people didnt go down to the pools in the rain. so, there werent much queues at the slides. i think of all the rides there, only the 3-story drop one is scary. i cant remember the name, probably cos i was too shocked when flying down the neat vertical slide in the rubber raft. cant imagine how the huge scaredy cat(me) managed to go on the ride. the second time was cos peiwen asked me to go, then i dunno why i agreed, brain must have been numb from cold.

after a nice warm bath back at the room, went out to buy food. all of us except the annoying peiwen bought subway. somehow, i ended up the food dustbin again.

PS: EEYER. WHYYYY. must help me check. so annoying and its late you know, over already...

Friday
i was planning to wake late, then go out to study. however, ended up going to school to put up the posters. started at about 9 and finished at noon. had lunch with wilson at junction8.

A look into the life of wilson:
-has a 'gan-ma' from macs. (a gan-jie too)
-he can go anywhere and meet people he knows or they know him
-random girls ask for his number (!!!! HAHA)
-very committed.

we went to the void deck to study. okay, i went to study, wilson went to do homework. apparently, wilson cant concentrate on work when christiane is there. annoying wilson, you asked your girlfriend along and then i was like playing gooseberry la.

AND- i went to buy the New Paper, just 5mins, and when i returned. wilson was.... AHEM AHEM. yepp, so i grabbed my bag and left to give them their privacy.

btw: in the 1hr-2hrs that i was there, wilson did an EXTRAORDINARY amount of homework... 2 sentences of baozhangbaodao. hahaha. good luck dude.


Please tell me you're for real,
because I don't want to bleed no more.
As the night fades away,
I'm dreaming of you.
Please tell me you feel something
because what I feel is ecstacy.
Oh, shame on you.
You cast your spell on me.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

YAY. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 3 YEARS, IVE FINISHED MY EOY-HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!!! YAY ME!!

after ruining the few days of christmas cheer with loads of homework, im finally done. forget the 'chiong homework till 4am everyday', forget 'starting everyday at 12 with lunch instead of breakfast'. now its time to get some enjoyment while the holiday lasts. and of course at least a full day of mugging. YUPP xD

i headed over to bras basah complex to print some more of the very expensive posters. the total cost now stands at a very intimidating $63. heh, im so gonna drain the nccfund like this. yup. and then i went to heartland mall in the hopes that they sold the 5kg weights i was looking for.

we should all take some time and laugh at ourselves cos the average singaporean's command of the english language is rather funny.

salesguy: yes? what can i get chu?
me: umm. do you sell 5kg weights?
salesguy: yes yes. wait. (takes out weighing scale)
me: nono. weights.... for exercise?
salesguy: you want electric one?
me: HUH? what? oh. nonono. i mean.. err.. dumbbells?
salesguy: dumb-what?
me: ahh.. nvm. bye...

tralala. damned wierd. and i didnt even manage to buy the weights after all.



Monday, December 25, 2006

woohoo. yay. its CHRISTMAS! (oh, i dont celebrate Christmas)

okay. christmas eve, supposed to be a fun time to be celebrating and other such stuffs right? and what was this loser over here doing- staying at home the entire day doing homework. EEYER. thats right- HOMEWORK. oh and the Gan Eng Seng Paper is so annoying, who puts 21Q in the paper1?! *freaking annoying paper wasted my whole morning*

finally in the evening, i left the house to go eat dinner at Rd. the food there was a good as usual. mongolian tofu, asam fish, lemon chicken- YUM. however, the people there are all so wierd. they kept hanging around our table even after we told them we'd order the drinks LATER. i even saw one of the aunties eyeing our food alot. HUH.

night, after dinner, at home. was so slack, couldnt find the conviction to open up my files and continue with my work. i only really got going at about 11, and the work was the 2 movie/documentary reviews. ahem, that was the only work i managed to clear after dinner. i think that meals make me lazy and then i cant concentrate on my work anymore. did those reviews till like 2 then went out with peiwen,xiwen and chris to serangoon gardens for ?supper? was planning to eat at chompchomp but then most of the stalls were closed already. ended up squeezing at the coffee shop with so many people. i guess they were there after the midnight service at the nearby churches or something. prata prata prata. egg and kosong. NO CHEESE at night. *smiles*

its now about 4 and i shall get some shut-eye before i have to start with the remaining work again tommorow. HAI. what a crappy last week of hols this is turning out to be. someone please ask me out to study.


Remember back in the day
We were like best of friends
But we were falling in love
We never could pretend
Night after night
We used to talk about me and you
The things we'd do together forever

Saturday, December 23, 2006

as i start this post, its actually already 2am on saturday morning.

well i shall go back to yesterday...

friday-
i slept at 0130, no later, on the advice of someone. look, so obedient. xD.
woke up at around 0630 to go to school. the annoying 58 takes so long to come. arrived in school to help out at the 'showcase training'. well, the turnout was really bad for one thing. it turned out that there was something screwed up with the partBs calling system and NO ONE got the message. zero- zilch-nil. well after deducting the OALs from the partCs, and adding in the partDs, we have like a grand total of slightly more than 20 cadets. haha. crappy strength. well, let no one say that we didnt try, the mixed plt went on and did drills and the ncc cheer somemore. cheers guys. thanks for the effort. as for me, i spent most of the time wandering around the school with sir yong doing the final planning for the orientation booths and posters.
- that was pretty much the end of stuffs at the school end of things.

had lunch at junction8 with kevin, joshua, edwin. in all the times ive been with kevin to the Food Junction, i have never seen him order any food that has cost less than $6. so while waiting for him then rest of us were being lame and playing the 'how much did kevin spend game'. haha- really dumb thing to do. his food was $7.80 btw. HAH.

arrived home at about 1400? after a quick shower i was planning to hit the bed to catch a few hours of sleep but i ended up doing homework. copied my book reviews and movie reviews into the exercise book. character reviews were like 600-700 words. omg. then after dinner it was back to the emaths.... which is what ive been doing till now. damn.

ok- emaths. 3 papers more. 2 more baozhangbaodao. chem spa planning.
im gonna do all by this weekend. then it'll be slack and mugging next week. i hope i can finish.

*yes yes. 'YAY' is for what you said. you got it right. happy? now just tell me what you meant.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

ALBERT MADE USE OF ME AS AN EXCUSE TO GO OUT AND MEET ********!!!

unbelievable. albert accompanied me to bras basah complex to print the posters for ncc. the condition he made for me was that i was supposed to go with him to vivocity so that he can buy christmas present.

so we 'tralala'ed down to bras basah via mrt and searched for the printing shop. i tell you, this kind of shop must make a fortune! i printed my 23 posters for the exorbitant price of 1.80 per A4 sized poster. thats a total of 41.40!!! thank god i can claim from the ncc fund.

okay, all the while back to cityhall mrt albert had to put up with my grumbling i think. sorry man. supposed to meet kevin at vivo but... HE DIDNT TURN UP. eeyer. made us wait so long.

okay. after visits to ALL the chocolate-selling shops in the place, we decided to leave. for some strange reason, albert kept emphasizing that he needed to be at angmokio mrt at 7 to meet his 'friend'. so i pestered and pestered until he told me that he needed a reason to leave the house so he used me as a reason so that he could go meet his friend. HUH.

okay. its alright. although i didnt get the information i wanted: I WILL GET IT. haha. *smiles*

*dont you feel lucky. i had something to do when you werent free! haha. or you'd feel so guilty.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

other than academics, i have to say that these holidays have been the most meaningful ones i have ever had. maybe its cos the camps im going to are most probably the last camps i will go to for the rest of my secondary school life.

ive taken so much time to think about stuffs this few weeks and i think that ive become much wiser after this hols. right before the hols was a rather depressing time but i think that ive more or less sorted out whatever was going on in my head.

some things have to be deleted, some have to be framed and treasured. it was during this time where i looked deep within me and seperated those things.

heres what ive come up with:
-the past should remain the past, whatever has not gone well can be worked on or just plain erased.
-i wanna work on the present, there are many things at hand that i can do better. i'll TRY.
-the future? haha, who knows. all i know is that i want to go to SAJC and i'll work hard to get there but anything else is out of my control.

Chiangmai Trip
this trip was one of the most fun holidays ive been to in a really long time. past hols in recent years have been BORING. fun with faimly is possible, well.

OBS:
my first time to UBIN- LOSER. i can safely say that the experiences that i went through in this camp has had the greatest impression on me... EVER. well i felt really empowered after the camp and i really-really-really think that now i can put my past troubles behind me and i can acheive my goals.


yup. ive even started feeling a little sad whenever i move my ncc stuffs around the house. its hard to think that in about 4 months all those stuff will be only memories. i was keeping the badges and suddenly recalled all about the courses that i went through to earn them. how quickly these years have passed. still recall in sec1 when i was kinda scared when my sec4 senior said: 'Welcome to 4 years in hell.' well that all seems so foolish and distant now.

onwards to study-study-study!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

let me start by saying: today was fun, i enjoyed it ALOT. =D yupp.

ok well, i went out with 'dududu'* to catch a movie. i think the day went well- walked all around after the movie. eeyer, because of that i ended up eating icecream again. haha, i have no self control.

THE HOLIDAY
rating: 3/5
not a bad movie, actually felt quite sad for the characters sometimes. i tell you, some of the things the male character did actually made me feel kinda ashamed to be a guy. i mean, that sort of irresponsible behavior is so wrong. sitting next to her somemore, the feeling even worse. i think the only thing i can comment is that this is more of a love movie where the people work hard to escape from their miserable lives only to find true love- or well... love? i might have a rather warped way of thinking, but what i got from the movie was this: sometimes when life seems to be going all wrong for us, we should take a step back and take a look at the problem. sometimes, its what we are doing that is causing us all these problems and we should make a change in our lives.

then, we walked around rather aimlessly while i looked for a birthday present for derek. WELL- thanks for accompanying me. see? im nice and kind.

i tell you, everytime i come out. i end up getting a tour of a different place. wheres the next place? today's tour actually included a library? im so gonna book that room to study next time, get some rich kid to pay for me- any volunteers?

*name not included for privacy's sake. HAHA.
I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

Between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

Collin Raye; Love, Me

well, ive grown up listening to songs like this from my dad. i really really like these sort of songs. SOME PEOPLE call them gay but i dont care. nice and touching.

Monday, December 11, 2006

eeyer. i cant believe it- im supposed to be doing my yingyongwen now to lessen the stupid homework workload and i dont know what im doing here.

haha, i keep getting distracted by music, people on msn and well.. stuff. nvm. i'll take a short break to impart some wisdom i gained from jackie at OBS.

STORYTIME:
there are 2 days in a week that a person should not have to worry about. these special days are yesterday and tommorow.

it is a fact that we often spend too much time and effort thinking and worrying about these 2 days that we cannot control. regret is an emotion that i feel is helpful to a certain extent to letting us know when we have done wrong and thus allowing us the chance to change in future. however, dwelling too much in the past has its own dire results, making us miss out on the happenings around us. sometimes, while obsessing over a figment of our past, we overlook what we should be cherishing in the present.

tommorow is a day that we can look to for a new beginning and change. important as it is, we cannot put our entire faith into believing that we can twist the future into what we want it to be. sometimes we just have to accept the things that come along and take them in our stride. it is no good continuously fretting about the things that we cannot control.

with those 2 out of the way, it only leaves today. today is what we live in. today is the present. as the saying goes: there is nothing like the present. what really matters to me is the present and whatever happens in it is my main concern. the people, events and happenings are here in this very moment to be cherished and we should not let up this opportunity.

life is not about the number of breaths we take;
but the moments that take our breath away.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

OBS POST


SUNDAY- 031206
nothing much to talk about. met up with junlong, jiahao, leena and some others at YCK mrt and made our way in the dark to NCCHQ. well, saw cheryl arrive a short while after we reached, poor her, looked so alone and by herself. after some short briefings at the MPH, we guys were sent to the learning rooms for some sleep. though the room was air-conditioned, it was totally uncomfortable with 100++ noisy and rowdy guys packed into the 2 joint rooms. the highlight of the night was when this guy from ACS(I) held the door open and shouted: "IM NOT CLOSING THE DOOR TILL YOU GUYS SHUT UP AND SLEEP. IF THIS IS WHAT IT TAKES- IM WILLING TO SACRIFICE." haha. what a joke.

MONDAY-041206
everyone was positively buzzing with excitement. boarded the buses after a light breakfast and went to pungol jetty for the ferry. unbelievably, it was my first time going to ubin! when a really extravagant, resort-like building, i was shocked: 'this is OBS???' well, we travelled past what we got to know as CAMP2 to CAMP1, a rather old and ramshackled campsite where we would start our outwardbound journey. splitting into watches, AH- i was the only chs person not in ChengHo. i was put into the watch: Livingstone- which i now feel is one of the closest watches. hah! then there was a short brief and we went off to play some icebreakers. the rest of the day was mainly getting accustomed to our surroundings, setting up the tents, and packing our trekking packs with gear, food, cooking utensils and clothes for the next few days.

1. theres a watch called HILLARY- wth.
2. we were the buffet for mosquitoes, i bet they were so full

Lesson of the day: open-mindedness. adapting quickly to a situation allows for life to be much easier.

TUESDAY-051206
an early wakeup call ant 0530, and we were off. it was all hurry-hurry as we packed up the tents and headed down the hill from the campsite and to CAMP1. after another hurried breakfast and washup, Livingstone sat together for our morning circle with our instructor, Jackie, and then we hoisted our tents, gear and trekking packs and made our way via the path to CAMP2. contrary to our fears, it was but a short 15min walk and we were soon gearing up for our high elements. although i kept this fact to myself, this was the part of the experience that i was dreading ever since the beginning, due to my intense fear of heights. however, i really want to give thanks to poh chiew and yi hao for the constant support and encouragement as my buddy climbers. i tell you, enjoyable as it was to climb to the top of those obstacle courses, it took alot of 'endurance' on the way down. largely thanks to the 'helpful' belaying of twenyo. haha, thanks bro. that evening and night was highly entertaining for the guys, suddenly gaining inspiration for 'taichi' and the toilet talk. planning for the next day's land expedition was over rather swiftly. i think we were rather well prepared for that in the sense that we had our route all planned out and our provisions well organised. the campsite for this night wasnt at all as bad as the previous night's- lotza breeze and virtually non-existant mosquitoes. woohoo.

lesson of the day: we should all learn to face our fears

WEDNESDAY-061206
woohoo. this morning, we actually were given the opportunity to eat at the cookhouse. ok, not that the cookhouse food was all that fantastic or anything but it was a change from the food we were carrying with us! another first of the day was that we managed to pack up and settle everything in record time! we were finally earlier than jackie. after gathering for our morning circle, we took our pacing and made off. LAND EXPEDITION was underway. im not going to lie and say that the packs werent heavy, BUT- they were manageable. it was the 5 tents we brought with us that really sapped my energy throughout the journey. as we neared our final destination, it was apparent that some of our watchmates were so tired that they were going totally on autopilot. im really proud to say that they all pushed on and none of them gave up.
CHEERS. the day wasnt over though, we had to use these provided materials to create a raft that was water-worthy. well, it was a disappointment as we had many miscomunications and were unable to complete it in time. nvm, we got together and worked out our differences and shortcomings, improving as a whole. though we were disappointed not to complete our objective, we were still glad to jump into the quarry to clean off the layers of sweat and grime from the trek. that night was the maggi noodles night- we cooked like 7 packets of noodles in each our 2 pots at a time. ok, i dont really know why my group asked me to be a SEA EXPEDITION leader? hah, werent you people afraid i'd lead yall the wrong way? well, went for the SEAEX .meeting together with the other leaders and we kinda did the planning and such. the next item on the agenda was the night's sentry duty. poh chiew, bryan and i were on the shift from 12-2. well surprisingly, i wasnt all that sleepy till the very end- must be my nocturnal habits that are coming in handy. well honestly there wasnt very much to do. we just sat around talking and eating the peanut butter cookies, only going for a check every 20-30mins. the only scare was at about 1plus when there was this half grunting and whistling sound. the three of us thought that there was a wild boar or something and rushed to check, but couldnt find anything. haha- rather uneventful.

lesson of the day: physical fitness is nothing without mental toughness

THURSDAY-071206
after my 2 short naps the previous night, i was still a little groggy when i got up and packed the tents. just thinking about having to navigate the route for Livingstone and Columbus was a little daunting. i kept thinking: 'ohmygod, what if i lead them to the wrong place, then so malu...', but then i just countered by thinking:'nvm. just try for fun, lost then lost.' -yeah, abit bochap but cant help it. well i couldnt help wondering if the sky was extra kind to us or something because for the first few hours of our kayaking, there was just this pleasant sunshine which eliminated the risk of sunburn, and there was just enough sun to counter the wind and make it rather cooling. any hint of strong sunlight only appeared at about 10, but by that time, we were already more than halfway there! then the weather took a sudden turn for the worse. as we rounded the eastern tip of the island, dark clouds swept over us from mainland singapore. thats when the instructors came round to the front and told me that a thunderstorm was imminent. i tell you, cant really remember what happened after that, it was all touch and go. the most exciting part was when we had to make the dash through the ferry channel- 'channel crossing'. well i do remember a time where i called the whole group to raft so i could pass down the instructions to maintain the diamond formation. well SORRY if i was a little harsh during that time, very hiong yeah. what a sense of relief it was to see the opening to the Ketam Channel after all that paddling. haha, i think we kinda picked the worst time ever to stop for lunch, we stopped right after crossing the Ketam Channel, not knowing that CAMP1 was like barely 200m down from our position. after finishing our SEAEX. we were allowed to do the much anticpated jetty jump. WOOHOO. not as exciting as i expected but still a 3-4m drop into the ocean? rather fun, but really really cold after that though. jackie was really kind yeah, she gave us from around 3-8 for washing up, packing the store and having dinner? this was the time that i really found how hardworking Livingstone was, we all put aside our cold and cleaned all our stuff, sorted it and acoounted for the store's equipment before going for our baths and cooking dinner. after the food on the previous days, today's dinner was like a feast.

1. 1/2 bag of white rice
2. 3 loaves of white bread
3. 4 cans of campbell soup
4. 2 cans of curry chicken
5. 2 cans of baked beans
dont you just find it so sumptuous? haha, well it really was after all that we did that day! just take the bread and dip it into everything or anything, then eat!

that night we did lotza sharings and received a piece of A4 paper on what we had done well and what we could do better. thanks for the feedbacks guys... girls too! =)

lesson of the day: no man can work alone, every success is the result of a team effort

Friday-081206
today was full of slacking. well not exactly slacking but mainly cleaning and packing and checking for missing stuffs from the Livingstone store. HAHAHA- after 'sacrificing' our blood to the mosquito buffet at our first night's campsite again, twenyo, yixuan, pohchiew and i were able to find 6 of the 7 tent pegs we were missing. sooooo- our entire group only had to pay 70cents in total! compared to the 40plus dollars of 'some other groups', its very little right? HAH. after that was shopping! Livingstone was the first group into the souvenior shop and we missed the rush and the long queues- yay. bought one polo-T and a sleeveless shirt. waitwaitwait- board the ferry and go home to singapore!

Friday, December 08, 2006

back from OBS already. not really that tiring at all- really. theres just so much to talk about. i'll update it in the coming days.

LIVINGSTONE ROCKS!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

time to go for obs! more when i return!