boy oh boy- i found out that theres so many things we can learn from the people around us just so long as we take the time and put in the effort to go look out for them.

heres some things ive learned this time round.

dad: how to endure hardships; out-of-the-box thinking methods;

mum: patience; hands-on guidance approach;

family (in general): the need to have good relations- close knit


Mr Quay: the need for studying (enlightenment)- yeah.. haha

Mr Tan Jit Huih: teachers are just as human as us- know when to be serious with them

Miss Hua: school IS a second home with teachers like her to be family


iggy: spontaneous; open mindedness

derek: know how to have a good time while not being unruly

li yuan: multi-tasking is possible (staff+SC Pres.)

xuanyi: lameness is not a disability- its a gift

xiwen: treasure friendships while they last- changes may occur in life

sushuen: blurr-ness is not altogether bad- brings laughter to others

***: things arent always what they seem to be


nono, im not emo. i prefer to think of it as suddenly feeling extremely sentimental and thankful. haha. do i even have the right to say that. wellwell- thanks everyone.


i wanna understand

Family

ohman... how could i be so stupid.

the phrase has been going around for so long- 'blood is thicker than water' but ive not really thought about it. i even used to think that i didnt really like my family and that i was unlucky. now i see the err in my ways. MY FAMILY ROCKS.

though i used to resent the fact that my parents did not seem to care about me; a result of having to divide attention between siblings. well ive just seen that they have only done so as a mark of trust for my actions- i wont let you all down. *smilez

in this confusing years where we start to wonder about who we are and why we are here, i believe that many of us have experienced the oh-so-common clashes with our parents. well, looking at some the situations that others i know are in, i can gladly see that im so much better off and that my parents and i share a special bond of mutual trust and relative understanding. i have come to see that this is one of the most important things to have in your life.

this understanding is not a one-way affair. we as children chould not take our parents for granted and see them as JUST another part of our lives. it is up to us to prove to them that we are worthy of their trust and thus let them take a heavy load off their minds without the burden of constantly having to worry about us. to do so, we need to be more understanding to their actions and learn to show appreciation for their efforts to connect with us- the 'lost generation'.

mymy... dont i sound so wise all of a sudden. haha. i dont know what has affected me, but im suddenly feeling so different.


i wanna understand

hmm. went out to a movie with eugene-liyuan-jacky today. Death Note turns out to be really interesting! hmm. shall find the time to read the manga. yepp, thats what ill do.

im just gonna put down some really meaningful quotes i found while browsing the net.

1) it hurts to love someone but not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2)Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship-- and to find out that you still care for that person.

3)A sad thing in life is when you meet someone that means a lot to you, only to find out that it was never to be and you just have to let go.

4)The best kind of friend is the kind that you can sit on a porch with and have the best conversation that you ever had.

5)Its true that we dont know what we've got until we lose it, but its also true that we dont know what we're missing until it arrives.

6) There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person you would like to hear it from, but dont be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from the heart.

7) Never say goodbye if you still want to try,; never give up if you still feel you can go on; never say you dont love a person anymore if you cant let go.

8)It only take a minute to get a crush on someone,n hour to like someone and a day to love someone; but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.


i wanna understand

... ... and to think i was rid of you... ...

this is seriously annoying you know, dont know why but i didnt manage to get rid of the cute lil' thing. perhaps its a sign that i should keep it. haiz, well i'll leave it at home then. cant really see any use for it.


i wanna understand

amazing. i dont even know how i did it but i just realised that i wasted an entire day.

it was supposed to go like that:

1) go to army market with terence to look for bags with iggy and kevin
2) buy the stuff then go walkies all over
3) end of by buying my street soccer boots and having dinner at PS

this was what happened;

1) nobody bought anything at the army market
2) decided to go look at stuff at queensway shopping centre
3) got off halfway through the bus-ride to go to vivo city
4) extremely crowded and not many stuffs interested us
5) went back to PS to have dinner
6) the bloody boots did not either mine or iggy's sizes

ps: disturbed kevin for the whole day
~sorry bro~ and.... haHAAA


i wanna understand

one. yeah just one event can really change your day.

today was so ominous due to the knowledge that we were going to recieve our results for amaths, emaths, ss and chinese. to make things worse it didnt even start well with the crappy amaths results that i got. although i didnt/havent receive and failing grades yet, there arent too many good ones though. but then came the emaths paper.

oh btw, i just have to shout smth. I SCORED THE SAME IN EMATHS WITH TEE LENG THE MATHS PRO!!! haha. ok thats finally out of my system. the emaths and ss were not that good grades but they were average-ish grades and did work to pull my confidence and mood up a little.

ohmygod the dreaded chinese was after recess. and mr yong ah... purposely asked me to help give out the papers. wellwellwell. pigs go fly you know- so there cheryl. the results were like so foreign to me la.

zuowen- 34/50
yingyongwen-15/20
paper2- 51/70
listening compre- 20/20!!!
oral- 22/40 (doi)
total- [71/100]


woohoo. my first distinction and its from the most unlikely source huh. probably my only A. but its one more than i expected anyway. haha. yay. im high now.



i wanna understand

hmmm. i think im making the right decision about this. i just gotta let it go you know? well instead of doing something stupid to the cute little thing, might as well let it be put to some good use. haha. byebye little cute thing- may you fare better somewhere else .

woohoo. i just found a stash of $200 plus in the corner of my cupboard last night! i find that so cool. now i have enough to buy the pair of street soccer boots that i so need. hhaa. the old pair literally fell apart when i was playing last time round.

So if I did
Something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand


~trust~

woke at 12 today. felt so lazy yeah. lunch was breakfast. high-tea tasted wierd.



Youre never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to Me
I will open My arms


~trust~

today marked the first day of my collection of different school's sec4 prelim papers. ive so far only received one set. looking for more though:

xinmin- got it (thanks again jamie!)
zhonghua- waiting
bowen- waiting
peicai- looking
anderson- looking
dunman- waiting
st nicholas- waiting
st josephs- waiting
cedar- waiting
holy innocent- waiting

well well. if anyone has other school prelim papers pls share with me ok? thanks all.


ive made up my mind- IVE GOTTA MAKE IT INTO ST ANDREWS JC. the place is grand. looks so good yeah. went to the open house. felt kinda wierd as there werent many sec3s there. took a long look around. really really impressed with what i saw. impressive facilities. im gonna do whatever it takes to make it. cheers.

~trust~

whew. what a long day, fun though. got through it with me why dont you:

0630- wakey wakey
0700- start the O-so-boring bus ride to bishan than to sinmin road
0740- arrive at iggy's house and realise that im the first one there
0800- start playing soccer at the court with iggy and ah zao
0900:1100- all the laggy others start showing up
1100:1300- play like mad with sports class people (chiong like crazy)
1300- feeling really tired, slack at iggy's house
1330:1400- lying on the floor with cramps in both my legs (why didnt i stretch first???)
1400- dragged myself to thompson plaza with iggy to KINDLY buy lunch for everyone
1500:1730- playing crappy games on the comp, funny old games like MASTERMIND; haha
1800:1900- finally reached home

well what an interesting day this was. really took my mind off the craziness thats been around recently. WOOHOO. feeling so much better.


ohyeah: heres some more oldie oldie songs:

yea. the exams are over at last. well not much time to relax. what wierd logic of continuing lessons after the exams- extra lessons somemore....

ive been looking back and i suddenly realised that the 3rd year of secondary school is almost over- where did all the time fly to? then somehow this led to me looking at all my old stuffs and CDs.

there are so many nice old songs didya know that? im gonna go retro and post a few old vids everyday, enjoy:







hey. if you found that it was bothering you: im really sorry. totally unintentional, lets leave it at that.

i wish i wish...

i just hope to be able to get through this EOYs without much incident. dont have that high hopes on stuff like chinese-geography-social studies but i still hope the others will be ok.

I NOT GONNA TOUCH THIS COMPUTER TILL NEXT WEDNESDAY!!! BAH!!!


~trust~