whether you mean it or not - your actions breed uncertainty

life without regular training has been boring, even though ive got to admit that im quite enjoying the loads of extra time thats available now. the past week has totally been lessons after lessons, consultations after consultations. its been tiring and stressful, in a different way. im proud to be in my imba class (that topped the level in every h2 subject) but its also pressurising as heck.. im already a couple of steps behind in terms of results, and nows the time to make up for that, i hope..

no more
ive been stupid
no more
i cant believe i defended you when people talked about you behind your back
no more
you claim people dont reciprocate, but its cos you dont give at all
no more
you expect others to be sincere when you lace your words with sarcasm
no more
you want to be appreciated, but you take those around you for granted
no more
i'd love to say "nice knowing you", but then again, i dont think ive known you at all


man.. i hate venting here, makes my blog look like some emo place. ohwell - over and done with. i feel the sudden urge to play soccer... soonsoon i hope (;

time flies, its all over
highs, lows, struggles, joys - memories.
you've been a wonderful team.

you know you lack sleep when
-you constantly feel like sleeping in lessons
-you're plagued by daily headaches that make you feel like tearing your hair out
-sometimes you just feel so irritable you feel like slapping someone just cos they spoke too loudly
-you fall asleep while standing up on the mrt, your knees buckle and you almost fall. then.. you dont even feel embarrassed when people around you stifle laughs, you just stand up, close your eyes and go back to sleep..

~ 10days and counting ~