countdown.

if you think about it, doesnt it always seem to be the case that we're counting down to something? like first there was the PSLE, then the yearly FYEs, then the Os, then the promos. even now with the promos over, theres the PW submission to look forward to, then Adivs next year, and capping it off with the Alevels. deadlines deadlines, i dont see an end to it in the forseeable future, just what are we working towards. im thinking its just the same thing out in the working world... damn this human rat race..

aye.. anyway, i really cant remember anything else about the past week apart from trainings. haha. as im typing this, im kinda wondering where my weekend went. i mean, i havent really done anything at all, apart from paddling that is... its like i spend the better part of the day paddling, then the rest of the time resting, revitalising myself so that.. i can paddle again, not that im complaining though, ive chosen this, precisely cos i love it that much. its like ive never felt so committed by anything before, ive never been so motivated to do self training, to seek self improvement. lets put it this way, its good for the heart (not to mention body)

heh. i made quite a revalation last night! ive been thinking that i had this shortage in money.. haha. in fact i have some extra cash lying around. yay. no need to worry about money for awhile then, can even get the body tights and new running shoes with quite a bit to spare.. time to get some new clothes, me thinks.. ;P




i kinda hate the way i am now.. i dont really know what im doing sometimes. am i saying it cos i believe what im saying, or am i saying it to try and convince myself of something i dont really believe. sometimes, its alright, but i still get these pangs.. i realise that im cheating myself by saying one thing and meaning another .. aye.. i need to get through this.the truth is that i still often wonder: what if..