almost one whole month since ive posted here, and yet the words dont seem to be flowing... maybe im losing my feel for writing, or maybe its just that i dont feel deeply enough to write about anything anymore..

i swear ive been feeling kinda empty ever since training ended. sure-on the surface it seems really liberating in the sense that i have lots more free time on my hands and ive gotten to know my classmates much better, but but but its like i lost some kinda purpose in my life?

i cant really explain it but sometimes i feel quite alone in school. haha strange huh.


life's just more complicated. how i wish it could be simple. just 'yes' or 'no'?
i must have believed a lie - i hope not...